How do you feel today?

I was feeling sad earlier & now I’m feeling calm.

I am feeling a lot of self pity today. Basically comparing my social functioning to others’ social functioning. I see how (seemingly) easy it is for some to get along socially, but I don’t even want that, really. Just garden variety jealousy, I guess?

thegentlepath wrote:I am feeling a lot of self pity today.

Moderation in everything, being a good thing to remember, especially when it comes to self-pity, I still feel that the occasional indulgence in it, isn't a terrible thing. It's like having a good cry every so often- not that I've had that pleasure for a long time (I seem to have lost the capacity for a good snotty, headachy cry), but I like the analogy. I don't think it's a bad thing to sometimes luxuriate in self-pity, as long of course, as we don't overdo it.

So don't feel too bad about it. We all do it, and I'm pretty sure that even those folks we think are 'together', do it, themselves, on occasion.

thegentlepath wrote:I see how (seemingly) easy it is for some to get along socially, but I don’t even want that, really.

I sometimes wonder about that. How easy is it really, for them? I mean, on the surface, you might see me somewhere, and think I am doing just fine- and on the surface, I suppose I can be a fairly social creature. But inside my head, I will always be the outsider.

So... yeah sometimes it might be that they are fish swimming easy. And sometimes, it just might be they fake it really good.

thegentlepath wrote:Just garden variety jealousy, I guess?

I get that sometimes- nothing serious, just a little envy, that I seem to be an absolute mess. I don't let myself dwell on it, however. Generally, I try to be happy for others that seem to have it better, and be more 'together'. But yeah it's human to get a little jealousy. I expect the folks we feel jealous for, feel it themselves- maybe even for us! Who knows?

^Yeah, I know.

A little sore, very tired but pretty good

https://voca.ro/15RYNRIGlQvd

Oblivion wrote:https://voca.ro/15RYNRIGlQvd

I'd say that accurately captures my mood atm. Where is disassociation, when you almost wouldn't mind?

So, So tired

weepingwillow wrote:So, So tired

Me too- we've been staying up far too late.

Hugs!

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