a little confused,dont know what to do.

well i think ive made the decision.im about 80% sure.im not going home.i have to go home monday to be in court.im gonna stay long enough to get my disability and come up with some money to come back here.hopefully itll only take a month or 2 to come up with enough to get me a place up here.

I will say one thing to you rich: It's good that you at least have things to do because, otherwise, you would probably be more depressed than you are. You have this court thing to go to and it also appears that you are actively planning your next move in life. Many people who are extremely depressed don't have anything to do in their life and have no definite plan on where their life is going.

Kevin

Make sure that you have money - don't do anything major without it. Make sure you have a smooth financial transition from one place to the other if you move.

well my mind is made up.im back home for now but im going back where i was.i have to atleast go and try it for a couple months and see what happens.ive seen some beautiful sights up there.i have never seen a humming bird in my whole life.i seen 2 of them the other day!!!i went and watched the fireworks on the 4th at a lake.the view was indescribable!!the moon was out with some very pretty clouds above the mountains with the lake in front of the mountain!!i wish i had my camara so i could show you guys!!gonna see if i can sell a couple of my vehicles and come up with atleast 5,000 dollars to go with.i can sell my towtruck for 10,000 dollars but dont want to sell it unless i have too.cuz i will need that truck to make money up there.

just depends on what happens in court tomorrow

Rich,

I hope it goes alright for you in court. It takes some integrity to face up to it. I'm seriously not sure if I could do it. I've been to jail before and didn't like it at ALL.

It looks like you're making positive plans. At least you've got a way to generate some cash. I'm kind of stuck for that. I don't have much of anything myself. I have this computer and a big screen TV but neither of those are for sale. They wouldn't bring much anyway. During my two week long psychotic episode I gave away all of my machinist hand tools. Stupid thing to do maybe but it felt like the right thing at the time. I felt that there were and are a lot of people a lot worse off than me and my tools were just sitting there gathering dust and rust so I gave away several thousands of dollars worth of stuff to Goodwill and a stranger I met there. Big mistake. I should've been looking out for number one better than I was but it's too late to go back now so I have to live with it.

I couldn't be a machinist again anyways so it's not like not having the tools has put me out of work.I could have sold them or at least given them to a struggling machinist student but what I did is done and I have to live with it.

GOOD idea to keep your tow truck. I wish I had one.

I've rediscovered that I have to take care of myself first, get my past behind me and move on to better things. It's cool to see that you're doing the right things for YOURself. Good luck.

well i didnt get locked up.the court lady my friend talked to was there.she didnt do a whole lot to help me but left the decision up to the judge.i made the ex and her lawyer look like a couple idiots.i aired every bit of dirty laundry i had on her.the judge looked at the with a WTF look.she still tells the judge that she was unmarried when the child was concieved and born. i told the judge that she was married and that i had to wait to sign the birth certificate till her husband signed a paper denying paternity.told the judge that i tried to get a copy of that paper from the hospital but they couldnt find him in thier records as being born there and that i needed a copy of his birth certificate.her lawyer was SPEECHLESS at that!!! the judge asked if she had anything to say about it and she said no!!!

but to make things worse my ###$ mother called the ex's lawyer and told her that i threatened to kill the kid! i told the judge that i would never say something like that.my lawyer also called her lawyer and told her that i made a death threat to him.the judge looked me and asked what that was about.i told the judge that he was mad cuz i called for my paper work and he hung up on me after saying he was gonna give it back.i told her that i threatened to turn him in for his drug use if i didnt get my papers.the judge wasnt too happy about that threat but oh well.he has my papers and took my money and did nothing.the judge was not too happy with them!!

so for now im safe.gotta wait for the decision to come in the mail.but atleast im free for another week or so anyways.i have a feeling that she may drop it all cuz she want s to move out of state and give me no contact or visitation with the kid.i told the judge that i have no problem with her moving if she lets me sign away my parental right and terminate the child support.i said if i can never see the kid if i wanted too then why should i still have to pay for him.said i have no problem with her new boyfriend adopting him either.but if she wont do that i said i will fight it to the end to make sure she and the kid stay in this state as long as im paying for him.

i did ok with no lawyer and only half of the paperwork that i do have.i think the judge may let me give up my rights to him.she told me that i should speak with a free lawyer first to make sure thats what i want to do.i told her that im sure its what i want and i dont need legal advise for it.she had a "maybe,possibly"look on her face about that.

Sounds like you've got a handle on things pretty good.

I've only been to court a couple of times and I can't stand attorneys. Judges haven't been too bad.

I've got three divorces behind me but no kids so no child support. I'm grateful for that. My first wife really wanted kids but we weren't getting along very good and I refused to have a kid when I had the idea that we might not be together to raise 'em.

I hate it when I've always got something hanging over my head, even something as simple as a monthly car payment bugs the s*** out of me.