talking to yourself

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Well...when it happens i am extreemly aware of everything, such as smells, sounds, color, light..i just have trouble comprehending amything, it is almost as if i get overwhelmed by stimuli, every touch is painful, every smell nausiates me, every sound hurts and confuses me, everything moves so fast and i am in slow motion, time feels like an eternity and i cant keep up. I am just overwhelmed and confused, i feel as if im dying, so terrifying...then it stops just as quickly as it started...i went to the doctor once cause i wondered if it were hormonal or i had a problem with my blood sugar. I got tested, everything came back normal, then i got a 5 minute lecture on substance abuse, i let her know i dont drink and i have never done drugs, which is the truth, i could tell she thought i was lying, i left there angry to say the least....i hate doctors, instead of helping they make things worse

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I never fight people, it would be funny if i tried, i am extreemly uncorrdinated, not to mention short, lol. Maybe if i could induce fight slow-mo it would help? honestly, i hope no one tries to fight me, that would scare me. That is too bad about the smell thing, what do the good and bad smells smell like?

I do as well, but I do it to reason out some problem in my head. It's alot easier then having to make an appointment and go do it in real life. I know people have monologues and that is 100% normal and pretending the other person is there is tool to reason with your imperfect self, is what I think.

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Yes I have conversations with myself, I find it hard to stop actually, it's so annoying and makes it hard for me to concentrate.
Actually right now as I type this I have 3 people ( I have a somewhat fragmented personality) telling me that I should not post anything on this site, another telling me to not get blood on the keyboard because I just bit my nail so far down that it has started to bleed And the other is alerting me to absolutely every noise due to constant anxiety.

So it does make it quite difficult to hold a conversation with someone.
For example, we may be talking about what we did yesterday and the person may say something that reminds me of something I had been thinking about earlier, I then start to have a separate conversation in my head, it is then I lose the contact between myself and the other person and the conversation breaks down or becomes awkward.

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Misvenus000 wrote:... I might tell myself positive things to keep me from going crazy with my panic attacks.

Oh yeah, I do that.

In private I find myself talking out loud to try to reason something out and quit freaking out. It's as if I'm talking to a friend but I'll often take both sides of the conversation too, maybe three or four sides. I'm sure it looks weird but it helps me.

I talk to myself a lot when I am alone, and occasionally, to my own mortification, in front of people. My head is constantly filled with noise, especially when I get read for bed. But yeah, I talk to myself. And I sometimes get lost in the fantasy world my conversations with myself create.