You know you're old when. . .

This doesnt feel like my youth. In your youth your ment to have fun and have crazy times but for me I have been job searching and failing for 2 years, I have no money to my name and my flat is horrible. Its mouldy and damp and floods and its crawing with slugs. I cant go on living like this anymore

Awww,hon, I'm sorry.

Is there anything I can do, you wanna talk about it? What is going on with the job? And why can't you get some help with schooling or something, we have that in the U.S. ....what is it like on that side of the pond. I have a good friend online from London, and he says kinda the same thing, and he's 40 something. He is a Sir.

ttys I hope, ((((Zeppelin Girl))))

ddeehopes wrote:Awww,hon, I'm sorry.

Is there anything I can do, you wanna talk about it? What is going on with the job? And why can't you get some help with schooling or something, we have that in the U.S. ....what is it like on that side of the pond. I have a good friend online from London, and he says kinda the same thing, and he's 40 something. He is a Sir.

ttys I hope, ((((Zeppelin Girl))))

Its ok. I have been keeping it together until tonight, I just burst into tears about it all.
Its like all started since I met my boyfriend. He had just left his job and I got sacked and ever since then we have been on benefits and I HATE it!! I cannot get a job. Im either not experienced enough or they just dont like me because of my shyness. 2 years this has beem happening. Im going to college in september then university but its never going to get better. God Im living on toast!
I have tourettes to contend with too and when I get upset my tourettes goes ######6 crazy. Oh and to top it off my bf snores all night long. Its 4:30am and im tired and pissed off

Hey girlfrieeeend,

hey when I was 20 I ate peanut butter sandwiches and chocolate milk every day, it was a bitch, and I had a job, it is hard at your age.

I admit that.

I know that things seem so bad right now, but they can only get better right?

Why you so shy? I'm an extrovert, not a shy bone in my body. But I like it that way, my hubby is very shy, but sometimes I come out in him and he is so much fun. At least you can be with your Bf right now. I know benefits don't leave you much to do anything with, but can you maybe pick up and go on a picnic tomorrow and get out of the house.......sounds like you need a little fun???? I would if I were you. I have agoraphobia but when I'm with my baby I can muster up enough to go fishing or hiking, and I feel so much better just getting away from my 4 walls, does that make sense? I love the outdoors and really miss adventures. You need to find something to take your mind off this and enjoy anything, something. It really does help girl. I swear.

It won't solve your problems, but it helps to give you a more positive perspective on things for a while, like an escape. Just leave it at home and get out. Will you try that tomorrow.

Snoring??? I had a bf that snored like a little piggy. lol, and after a while I couldn't sleep without it. weird aye? It was worse when he drank. But I hear ya there. Has he tried those nose thingys?? I had to nudge mine and he would stop for a second or so. But I just had to get used to it, or sleep in the other room, or on the couch, or go to sleep before him til I got used to it.

Got a pillow to hit him with>??? kiddin'.

Here's you a little gift to make you feel better I hope.

http://www.led-zeppelin.com/mm.html

(gentle hugs) til we speak again, dd

ddeehopes wrote:Hey girlfrieeeend,

hey when I was 20 I ate peanut butter sandwiches and chocolate milk every day, it was a bitch, and I had a job, it is hard at your age.

I admit that.

I know that things seem so bad right now, but they can only get better right?

Why you so shy? I'm an extrovert, not a shy bone in my body. But I like it that way, my hubby is very shy, but sometimes I come out in him and he is so much fun. At least you can be with your Bf right now. I know benefits don't leave you much to do anything with, but can you maybe pick up and go on a picnic tomorrow and get out of the house.......sounds like you need a little fun???? I would if I were you. I have agoraphobia but when I'm with my baby I can muster up enough to go fishing or hiking, and I feel so much better just getting away from my 4 walls, does that make sense? I love the outdoors and really miss adventures. You need to find something to take your mind off this and enjoy anything, something. It really does help girl. I swear.

It won't solve your problems, but it helps to give you a more positive perspective on things for a while, like an escape. Just leave it at home and get out. Will you try that tomorrow.

Snoring??? I had a bf that snored like a little piggy. lol, and after a while I couldn't sleep without it. weird aye? It was worse when he drank. But I hear ya there. Has he tried those nose thingys?? I had to nudge mine and he would stop for a second or so. But I just had to get used to it, or sleep in the other room, or on the couch, or go to sleep before him til I got used to it.

Got a pillow to hit him with>??? kiddin'.

Here's you a little gift to make you feel better I hope.

http://www.led-zeppelin.com/mm.html

(gentle hugs) til we speak again, dd

Im shy cos well for starters my dad is the shyest man alive, even with his kids and I got bullied ALOT at school. I was mostly on my own so I didnt really learn "people skills" and how to interact with people. Since meeting my bf though im ALOT better but interviews and talking to strangers im crap at. Your extravert cos you probably had a better childhood than me.
Well my benfits have been stopped so we are living on £100 every two weeks and I really do need some fun but you have to pay for fun. If you know any free fun stuff then do tell!
I would go on a picnic but we havnt nothing decent to eat, but thanks for the idea
I can imagine a baby driving me crazy!! why are you agrophobic? somthing bad happen to you?
I love adventures too but where I live there is no adventures to be had. Its a disgusting place. I was going to join the terrestrial army for adventures but im always puuting stuff off.

I have decided to be more positive. Yeah I think I will go out tommorow, for a walk about but even thats getting taken away from by the bastards who stare. Im not even that good looking but men are whistling, talking and following me! I was going to throw a brick at one of them the other day, they make me wanna explode!........but if I take my music too then I can ignore them, but it doesnt really stop them.

Haha I really can live without snoring! I never realised but im a light sleeper and any noise wakes me. Somtimes my bf stops snoring and every now and then he will let out the loudest snore that I wake up then burst into tears cos I get so frustrated!!! I need earplugs I think, where can I get them from?

Thanks for replying, its good to talk to people.
Im goona start looking for jobs again cos no one else is going to do it for me.

Aww thanks for the link but those vids and stuff dont work on my computer but thanks for the thought! I was wondering how you knew I liked them! haha stupid me!

At least I had a decent meal tonight! spaggetti Bolognese! mmmmm!!!

Zeppelin Girl wrote:

ddeehopes wrote:Hey girlfrieeeend,

hey when I was 20 I ate peanut butter sandwiches and chocolate milk every day, it was a bitch, and I had a job, it is hard at your age.

I admit that.

I know that things seem so bad right now, but they can only get better right?

Why you so shy? I'm an extrovert, not a shy bone in my body. But I like it that way, my hubby is very shy, but sometimes I come out in him and he is so much fun. At least you can be with your Bf right now. I know benefits don't leave you much to do anything with, but can you maybe pick up and go on a picnic tomorrow and get out of the house.......sounds like you need a little fun???? I would if I were you. I have agoraphobia but when I'm with my baby I can muster up enough to go fishing or hiking, and I feel so much better just getting away from my 4 walls, does that make sense? I love the outdoors and really miss adventures. You need to find something to take your mind off this and enjoy anything, something. It really does help girl. I swear.

It won't solve your problems, but it helps to give you a more positive perspective on things for a while, like an escape. Just leave it at home and get out. Will you try that tomorrow.

Snoring??? I had a bf that snored like a little piggy. lol, and after a while I couldn't sleep without it. weird aye? It was worse when he drank. But I hear ya there. Has he tried those nose thingys?? I had to nudge mine and he would stop for a second or so. But I just had to get used to it, or sleep in the other room, or on the couch, or go to sleep before him til I got used to it.

Got a pillow to hit him with>??? kiddin'.

Here's you a little gift to make you feel better I hope.

http://www.led-zeppelin.com/mm.html

(gentle hugs) til we speak again, dd

Im shy cos well for starters my dad is the shyest man alive, even with his kids and I got bullied ALOT at school. I was mostly on my own so I didnt really learn "people skills" and how to interact with people. Since meeting my bf though im ALOT better but interviews and talking to strangers im crap at. Your extravert cos you probably had a better childhood than me.

ahh, yeah, I see, I had to move every year so I got to where I learned to like and be liked or get bullied. I also had 4 brothers, but I was the oldest, so that taught me alot about taking up for myself, standing tall, proud and never giving up. It just takes practice , even at 20, that is excellent time to learn people. Waitressing was good for me in that area too.

Well my benfits have been stopped so we are living on £100 every two weeks and I really do need some fun but you have to pay for fun. If you know any free fun stuff then do tell!

Let's see, even going to the park, or swimming somewhere, or hiking in the woods, you know things that get you out but don't cost anything. Even just going window shopping, with you bf of course since you have such insensitive neighbors that whistle. That can be soooooo annoying.

I can imagine a baby driving me crazy!! why are you agrophobic? somthing bad happen to you?

OH no hon , I meant my man, I don't have kids, so he's my baby in speech. Sorry bout that.
Yeah, I was a victim of a violent crime and ptsd hit me in 97 at work. I had my first panic attack, and so I have to be with my hubby and wear sunglasses when I can go out, or have to. I fight it everyday. I got out today and went to the doc. I do enjoy it after I get back home and look back on it, and the more I do it the better I get. One day at a time. My goal is to get back out, go back to work, and throw the sunglasses away or wear them on my head. Baby steps.

I was going to join the terrestrial army for adventures but im always puuting stuff off.

Tell me more.........

I have decided to be more positive. Yeah I think I will go out tommorow, for a walk about but even thats getting taken away from by the bastards who stare. Im not even that good looking but men are whistling, talking and following me! I was going to throw a brick at one of them the other day, they make me wanna explode!........but if I take my music too then I can ignore them, but it doesnt really stop them.

I hope you do this.....and the music is a great idea. Just ignore them.

Haha I really can live without snoring! I never realised but im a light sleeper and any noise wakes me. Somtimes my bf stops snoring and every now and then he will let out the loudest snore that I wake up then burst into tears cos I get so frustrated!!! I need earplugs I think, where can I get them from?

EArplugs, I imagine you can pick them up at any like our walmart here. Or even cotton balls would help. It sounds more like he needs a nasal stretcher tho. One or the other.

Thanks for replying, its good to talk to people.
Im goona start looking for jobs again cos no one else is going to do it for me.

You;re more than welcomed.
I hope you can find something while you window shop. Just say when you see a place, I"m going in............and just dive in.... don't test the waters or you'll back out. At least get an application and take it home.

Aww thanks for the link but those vids and stuff dont work on my computer but thanks for the thought! I was wondering how you knew I liked them! haha stupid me!

At least I had a decent meal tonight! spaggetti Bolognese! mmmmm!!!

Yummy, you got me beat , I had frozen pizza , 10 for 10$. LOL. I love those things. And romaine noodles. They are so cheap and good with hotsauce and milk. mmmmmm.


Ttys,