It's not quite being addicted to the internet, but it's as close as I can find on these forums.
I've been on it for 47 hours straight, and only now stopped because my desktop overheated.
I don't think I'm going to be able to stop. I know I have a job and have to pay the bills, and I'm trying to explain to myself that if I want to continue playing, I'll have to have an income in order to have electricity/rent/food, but sweet Sheogorath... I need it. I need it forever and always, never ending.
I know this must sound like a joke, or maybe sarcasm, but if you've played it then perhaps you have at least an tiny inkling of what I feel. Skyrim is everything I could ever want, and more... If I won the lottery tomorrow, I would figure out just how much money I need to cover basic needs, max out a gaming PC and grab a few huge monitors and just let myself drown in Skyrim.
I know you're thinking that it wouldn't possibly work, but while I've been denied Skyrim due to my video card overheat issue, I've been planning it out. I would duplicate the displays on monitors in every room of the house, set up a wireless 360 controller to run the game with. A treadmill, indoor cycle, etc. will keep me in shape, I'll pay for meals to be delivered (perhaps utilize the weight watchers delivery program, keeping a steady flow of balanced meals as long as they stay in business), and so forth.
I've been reading up about an old meditation method the Russians used to get hours and hours of rest in only a 15-20 minute period, so theoretically I could spend 22+ hours each day on Skyrim.
Ideally, it would be 24, but unless I can find a way to make my brain change wave patterns while playing Skyrim, I don't think that's going to be possible yet...
Hopefully, if I stay in shape with my exercise and diet habits, I'll be able to live long enough to see immortality, or at least brain/computer fusion, become a reality.
But that's all null and void if I don't win the lottery... and I understand that unless that happens, it's merely a fantasy. I know I need to get on with my life, but I don't want this weekend to end.
So, I'm up for suggestions. Does anyone have any ideas on how I can trick myself into feeling that going to work and denying myself 60+ hours of Skyrim a week is worth it in the end? My current inner argument is that any Skyrim > no Skyrim at all, but right now my brain appears to be fixated on the desire for immediate reward...