im addicted to porn

This addiction of mine has been going on since I was 14 so its been 7 years now. Ever since I've seen my first porno on vhs I've been hooked. I used to have to steal porn from my dad's room to get my fix. (until i got caught....talk about awkward). Eventually i figured out the internet had porn and lottttsss of it for free. That's pretty much when things went down hill. I would spend hours upon hours looking at so much porn. I began to lose a lot of friends but i didn't care as long as i had my porn it was alright. As the years went on however my addiction fluctuated. I could go a month or two without viewing porn but when I did view it I would make up for the time lost. Then I stopped my first year out of high school and start making progress with my life. Got a good paying job, bought a nice car, got my own place so things were looking good. Then I went to the doctor to discuss my inability to stay focused for long periods of time.(terrible idea) She then told me to take a test and afterwards diagnosed me with ADHD so now I'm prescribed adderol. Why mention this you ask? Adderol makes you extremely focused and it will make you stay up for long periods of time. So the first day when i could not fall asleep i grabbed my laptop and relapsed. Now instead of watching porn for hours I can watch it for DAYS!!! Since i barely slept i started calling off work a lot an eventually lost my job. I rarely see family and friends since I've isolated myself completely. Rents almost due and i'm broke. My car isn't working. I know what to do to fix everything but my addiction keeps me from people....

Have you tried not taking your med? Try it and then see your doctor again and explain what happened. You had a bad relapse but that doesn't mean that you can't get back on track, it's going to be ok.

I'm going to write you a poem ... because i am so inspired from your story and i know things must be tough right now....

okay here it goes
i just listened to your woes
and man o man
i hate those all time lows
i want you to stay positive
for you and for me
cuz after all we're all in this .... aren't we?
we all have issues here and there
some don't say it ...but beware
because everyone has a problem
willing to talk about it ? yes or no?
you are cuz you posted, you know?
and that is a good step,
shoot, a great step!
how can we defeat this,
if we never tried this yet.
keep your cool and stay calm
and do your best to stay strong!

I'm rooting for you to be better
and that is why i send you the letter

C for courageous
and i'll leave it at that.