Porn / Browsing habits

I have noticed a change in my browsing habits mostly down to a strangle form of porn namely humiliation and financial domination. For those that don't know basically hot girl, complete b1tch demands you send her your money. Now while i know better than to send money i have being splurging on videos.

These videos can be expensive, and i have spend over a hundred euro on two or three videos in the past. Then i saw sense and stopped although the urge is still there (the videos are good but damaging as the hook you in more and more and these girls get you aroused before getting you to do stupid degrading things out of lust).

My browsing habits are just surfing from sit to site to see these girls bragging about how much money they took from the so called 'freaks' and 'losers' that 'serve' them, i get some weird rush from this.

I was hoping someone here know the thinking behind this and how i can change surfing habits, im a bit of a loner, so i spend a lot of time on line doing this. I think im lonely and i am a little depressed. Could be sexualising my feelings of worthlessness with a humiliation fetish? And is that bad?

I find it hard to talk to people socially awkward is how i would define myself people dont run over to speak with me and when you buy these videos the girl might talk with you for a while untill she wants more money, I do find it hard to write my feeling so the info in this post s more than likely jumbled throughout.

I am sorry for that.

If you understand this i would love to hear your opinion and how i can change this habit, i do nothing else online now.

Hi, binary! Have you ever felt humiliated or bullied by a woman (or women) in the past? You could try to do stuff to boost your self esteem. Doing something that you're good at can help and you could try to hang out with people.

Was interested to see answers here, but probably user that asked, found solution to solve it:)

Porn browsing just gets worse and worse. Believe me! I have the same problem for the last 10 years. Can you believe 10 years plus? I just have to have a filter on my system and I made a website to help myself and others..Check it out:
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