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i go to this alternative lifestyle site,,and its got everything..webcam chatting, nudity allowed too..., browsing and posting to women and men...its got everything...i have found that this sites has sort of taking over my life, and my thoughts at times...i admit,,i have a problem here, and i know to defeat it,, i got to stay away from it for good....

the other night i was on it..and i have 2 girls that live down the complex from me...believe they might be lez,s...but not sure...anyhow,,,i got all hot and bothered from this site, and i have been watching them come home at night...and the one comes home at 4pm......the one that come home at 4pm...i put a note on my window...i live on the second floor,,,,it read- USE ME..... that is how this site is effecting me..some will get a laugh out of this...other will not.

now that i did that..i worried about getting into trouble,,,with them, or anything eles...nothing has happen...and i feel bad about doing it after i did it.....but this is how this site effects me....but to be honest, i have been sort of this way since high school.....the sexual part of my life has been a huge problem..done things i should have not probably

how do i get over this feeling bad about the note, and insecurity its causing me..

anyhow...leaving the note on the window makes me depressed...someone on that alternative website told me to do it....other told me to leave a note at the door.......is it normal to feel the way i do...i how can i get over this?

donss,

You just pretend in your own mind that ou never left the note there in the first place. THe more anxious you feel about this, the more likely they will think you are 'strange'. Just forget about it as best as you can and get on with things.

donss wrote:anyhow...leaving the note on the window makes me depressed...someone on that alternative website told me to do it....other told me to leave a note at the door.......is it normal to feel the way i do...i how can i get over this?

I think that deleting your account from that website would be a good idea too. If you are the type of person who does what others tell you to do, then staying clear of such a site is advisable. It isn't 'normal' to feel the way you do, but it points to the fact that you at least feel regret about what happened. Too much regret can really drag your life back though, and sometimes we just have to move on.

Kevin

agree....those sites does nothing but screw your head up

i had a girlfiend until a month ago, i was over there, and i had a cold feeling....ignored....so i left,,,,she hurried after me,,i have not been myself lately...she called the other night, left message, i went over there,,she was nto home...but i felt angry....she as a friend,,but some for some reason,,no sexual drive towards her...thats it the way its with me...if a girl is a friend, i just don,t get sexually attracted....probably because of my erectile disfunction...get it up,,,but loose it....this may be funny,,,but its not when you are with girl

donss wrote:agree....those sites does nothing but screw your head up

i had a girlfiend until a month ago, i was over there, and i had a cold feeling....ignored....so i left,,,,she hurried after me,,i have not been myself lately...she called the other night, left message, i went over there,,she was nto home...but i felt angry....she as a friend,,but some for some reason,,no sexual drive towards her...thats it the way its with me...if a girl is a friend, i just don,t get sexually attracted....probably because of my erectile disfunction...get it up,,,but loose it....this may be funny,,,but its not when you are with girl

So ? Porn movies are made for watching like any other movies, you not need and can't be passioned to them...if you are then ask real professional help!

I had the same problem with these sites and I was also addicted to hooking up with married men.
Most of the time I just felt ignored.