talking to girls online addiction (in relationship)

Hello,

I'm 21 and im from england. Believe it or not, I'm actually very happy with my girlfriend.

Basically what my addiction is talking to strange girls online and talking sexual which obviously a big nono in a relationship. whatever I say is never meant and this is where I can't explain on why I do it. I've not fully deactivated it and would like help out on stopping myself and having self control in the future because really I love my girlfriend to bits and I can't destroy her life anymore and it kills me not being able to explain my self. I want people feeling sorry for myself because what I have done is awful but if anyone has any advice or is in the same situation as I please reach out because this is killing me and I want to stop.

Why have I done this when I'm so happy, why would i do this when im happy? I really dont understand my mind.

Thanks for reading
Winj

The internet is tool and a resource that can be used in a healthy manner. It can be addicting and that usually means that one has to back off and change their routine if they realize that it is taking over their life.
I don't carry any personal electronic device. Everyone today assumes that you have a phone on you. I do have a phone and internet at home. I choose a distraction-free life. I don't always have to be reachable or in-touch with whomever.
I have set myself a schedule for internet use for visiting certain websites (this is one of them). Sometimes an unscheduled Google search comes up for information like a phone number or definition, but I try to avoid porn or mindless socializing on the internet.
You might also want to read some threads about online cheating in the Sexual Addictions section and how others are dealing with it.