Addicted to sending nudes.

Hi all, I'm addicted to sending nudes. I'm 18 and I've been doing this since I was...about 13? I didn't do it as frequently when I was underage, but now that I'm of age I'm always on dirtyroulette and kik getting strangers off by stripping for them. There are two people that I'm particularly loyal to and sometimes I'll disappear for days/weeks/months just to make a big come back. I'm addicted to the attention. I'm a lesbian and I'm traumatized by men because they've emotionally abused me and sexually assaulted me. Despite that, I feel so powerful when I'm teasing these guys I don't know..
I've noticed it's a coping mechanism for me. Right now it's finals week and I'm sending more time sexting than studying . I know that I shouldn't put so much time and energy into it but it makes me feel good to have control over these people with just my boobs and butt. I'm nowhere near ready to bring this up with a therapist... I'm sex repulsed so it's not like I'm doing it for my sexual needs either. I don't know what to do, like, should I even stop?

Hey sweetie, I would say ofc you should stop. But I know how it can become a habit. Been there with the camming also.

Despite your protestations, I think there still might be something sexual in it.

And it seems to me as if it's also a way of taking back the unfortunate situations with men, that you say you've been thru. This is something you do with men on YOUR terms. Not on theirs.

And ofc the simple thrill of exhibition.

I always think it's better to not cam. But especially with it interfering with living your life. I hope you can at least do more to moderate it.

I don't know why you shouldn't be able to tell a therapist, sweet pea. Nothing they've not heard before, surely!