Addicted to videogames

I have a lot of free time and I used to spend it playing videogames but my pc got broken and It was years since I do not play good games (I played some boring games on ps3 but now it is broken too) and I am slowly start to feel desperate. I am going to buy another pc because I really can't spend more time without playing videogames and I want to kill myself. I don't think I am very addicted to them. I mean if I play them at home I feel happy in my institute but when I not play them I start to think about them: oh noes I don't have anything to do at home despite doing homework, I don't want to go home, my life is so meaningless.
And I get depressed. Also I am schizoid and I don't have friends with whose hang out and I feel very anhedonic to do anything. People think that I am crazy but everything reminds me of videogames and I suffer a lot. And nobody understands my suffering. Tomorrow will force my parents to buy a new pc but time passes slowly. (I am 16)
Also when I was a little child my dad and my mum let me play videogames in the call shop for a lot of time. I think that would explain a bit my ''addiction''.

my older brother who is 21 is addicted to the rpg online game League of Legends. he would literally play the game non-stop for hours on end. and it has really been affecting with grades, and in general, everyday life. whenever my mother tries to make him stop form playing, he would also literally turn crazy and even hit her. he is like the epitome of an addicted video gamer lol. anyways, i suggest you watch the anime series, Welcome to NHK, its a funny and interesting anime and it will teach you many life lessons, in particular what will happen to you if you continue being addicted to video games. its a really realistic portrayal of mental illnesses and everyday problems. good luck!

I was going to post this on yahoo answers but hahaha no.

anyway I'm actually tired of 99% of all the videogames I ever played, the only thing I only really find happiness, though a crude happiness, is horror indie games and old 90s computer games.I know there is a thing called moderation which I swear by, yet those games are really the only entertainment I have.
I mean the only talents I have are drawing and somewhat 3d modelling and messing about in the files of games. I suck at sports, and I even tried them, the kids around me cheated horribly (not to mention I was an obsessed bad sport at the age of 8, that didnt help at all) the teams didn't same shirts so I'd get confused big time and the little demon spawn on the opposite team say "throw it to me!" and you guessed it I threw it to them, I'm that idiotic.

Lemme just get to the point, I want out of my little bomb shelter I call a house, the reason I call it a bomb shelter is my moronic family moved to this enterprising little trash heap town, I cant make any neighborhood friends, they are thugs or linked to thugs prostitutes or drug dealers
Yes I'm white. I fight my growing inner tumor of racism each day even just driving in the neighborhood all the cars ride my butt, honk me regardless there are ****ing cars infront, and once
there was this wonderful person who speed up in the back of me and almost hit me in the back bumper, I had to go ON THE WRONG SIDE of the lane just to not crash. I know this has not gotten to the point yet, I will continue textwall and reveal it.

nevermind that post above me, I got all loaded and heated in rage.

Alligator9 wrote:I have a lot of free time and I used to spend it playing videogames but my pc got broken and It was years since I do not play good games (I played some boring games on ps3 but now it is broken too) and I am slowly start to feel desperate. I am going to buy another pc because I really can't spend more time without playing videogames and I want to kill myself. I don't think I am very addicted to them. I mean if I play them at home I feel happy in my institute but when I not play them I start to think about them: oh noes I don't have anything to do at home despite doing homework, I don't want to go home, my life is so meaningless.
And I get depressed. Also I am schizoid and I don't have friends with whose hang out and I feel very anhedonic to do anything. People think that I am crazy but everything reminds me of videogames and I suffer a lot. And nobody understands my suffering. Tomorrow will force my parents to buy a new pc but time passes slowly. (I am 16)
Also when I was a little child my dad and my mum let me play videogames in the call shop for a lot of time. I think that would explain a bit my ''addiction''.

Are you talking with a therapist about that? Also, if you are shizoid, that doesn't mean that you don't deserve to have friends. I think you need real help and everything will be ok. You will have friends and games won't be needed anymore.

I do not know if I am addicted to video games, but without a doubt I play them a lot. It distracts me from my other problems, and in many ways gives me a measure of social interaction I would not otherwise have. I don't feel bad about it. If it is an addiction, there are far worse ones to have...