i blackout

hi i usually get very angry and when i do i tend to blackout and hit things. ive put many holes in walls and ive hit my car. usually anything that is there and when i come to it i dont remember what i have done. i feel like i am self destructing and i feel that i will hurt someone one day. all suggestions would be great!

Hi, Windt553! It sounds to me like you might dissociate when this happens, but I'm not a professional or an expert. Have you told a doctor about it? You could ask them to send you to a specialist.