please help! dont know whats going on

This is my first post and am not sure where to start or if this is even the right section but Im giving it a shot, first a little background on me.

Im 23, female and back living with my family after breaking off an engagement to a severely emotionaly abusive and controling man. When I was nine months old I started to have siezures, was give a very high dose of Fenobarbatol (sp?) And they stopped but my mom says my personality changed. When I was about 10 I was diagnosed with BiPolar and heavily medicated till I was about 15 and we lost insurance. My symptoms started to improve (at least in public) and at 18 I was told it was a misdiagnosed

In the last couple years I have been very calm and even tempered but when some one does manage to make me mad all chaos ensues, though oddly I calm down very fast like in an hour.

My problem:
According to my family sometimes when I'm angry I'll start yelling and screaming incecently but making no sense at all. Like screaming "NO" over and over for over a minute. But i never remember any of this and I think I even some times black out. I often also dont rember argument right after I have them. This realy scares me and my family. What could this mean? Does this sound like IED? This just happened and I'm getting scared, so is my family.

There is more to it but this is already alot to read lol so if you have a question I'll answer it.
Thanks to all in advance!

Hey,

It's possible that your family exaggerate your behaviour during these outbursts and that you are taking what they say as literal. Is that a possibility? In my own life, I take everythign literally and have to remember that many people exaggerate things and/or speak in riddles/coded language.

Going back to your past, Fenobarbital is a drug that acts on the central nervous system, so it's no wonder that your mother noticed a change in your personality. High doses of it are given to people with epilepsy, so maybe that's what the doctor assumed you had. It's also given as an anti-convulsant. My first girlfriend had epilepsy and I recall he taking tablets each day, although I don't recall their name.

My thoughts are that these anger outbursta nd subsequent loss of memory might not necessarily be related to the seizures. Moreover, it could just be as a result of stress and sadness (at the end of the engagement), amongst other things. Your best bet is to just go to your local doctor. I had severe outbursts many years ago but they were controlled by taking an anti-depressant (escitalopram).

Kevin

RainCloud797 wrote:This is my first post and am not sure where to start or if this is even the right section but Im giving it a shot, first a little background on me.

Im 23, female and back living with my family after breaking off an engagement to a severely emotionaly abusive and controling man. When I was nine months old I started to have siezures, was give a very high dose of Fenobarbatol (sp?) And they stopped but my mom says my personality changed. When I was about 10 I was diagnosed with BiPolar and heavily medicated till I was about 15 and we lost insurance. My symptoms started to improve (at least in public) and at 18 I was told it was a misdiagnosed

In the last couple years I have been very calm and even tempered but when some one does manage to make me mad all chaos ensues, though oddly I calm down very fast like in an hour.

My problem:
According to my family sometimes when I'm angry I'll start yelling and screaming incecently but making no sense at all. Like screaming "NO" over and over for over a minute. But i never remember any of this and I think I even some times black out. I often also dont rember argument right after I have them. This realy scares me and my family. What could this mean? Does this sound like IED? This just happened and I'm getting scared, so is my family.

There is more to it but this is already alot to read lol so if you have a question I'll answer it.
Thanks to all in advance!

Ok, make sure you read this carefully:

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I would honestly consider looking into Borderline Personality Disorder, and recommend talking to your physical doctor, or psych doctor; if available. Considering some aspects of your aforementioned background; mental abuse, etc., your self-worth may have been severely affected (maybe even long before the relationship), and you might only have slight realization of it. I am no expert, and suggest looking into one. Not all psych doctors seem to be great at doing their jobs, so make sure to check their reviews before making a decision; sometimes in rural areas, the choices can be extremely limited.