Help, Horrible self control

I have a series of major problems ranging from tics to uncontrollable anger (more like whining, I never do anything physical just whine and I can't shut up) and speaking of that I have horrible vocal control. I spout out words, secrets, lies, etc and can't seem to stop though I do many things from punishments to isolating myself, I think I'm just hrting myself more because these aren't my choice.

I'll start off by saying that I wasn't sure which forum I was suppose to put this in. And I'll also start by saying a scenario and if any of you can help me.

Usually I am very twitchy, like muscle twitches and I get aches from these, but that's another issue. My main issue is my explosive anger. I have not been diagnosed with anything and do not want to, but I have horrible outbursts without reason, and it seems my other emotions are magnified as well. This happens the more I try to limit it, the more it gets out of hand.

The only time I feel like I have it under control is when I let it take over, then I'm calm. My mind is kind of backwards, for example when I want to practice playing an instrument, I have to not want to play that instrument in order to play it.

But I really need help with this problem, and am not sure if I even organized this post well enough to understand because I'm kind of rushing right now (I don't know why though) and am anxious.

guy44242 wrote:I have a series of major problems ranging from tics to uncontrollable anger (more like whining, I never do anything physical just whine and I can't shut up) and speaking of that I have horrible vocal control. I spout out words, secrets, lies, etc and can't seem to stop though I do many things from punishments to isolating myself, I think I'm just hrting myself more because these aren't my choice.

I'll start off by saying that I wasn't sure which forum I was suppose to put this in. And I'll also start by saying a scenario and if any of you can help me.

Usually I am very twitchy, like muscle twitches and I get aches from these, but that's another issue. My main issue is my explosive anger. I have not been diagnosed with anything and do not want to, but I have horrible outbursts without reason, and it seems my other emotions are magnified as well. This happens the more I try to limit it, the more it gets out of hand.

The only time I feel like I have it under control is when I let it take over, then I'm calm. My mind is kind of backwards, for example when I want to practice playing an instrument, I have to not want to play that instrument in order to play it.

But I really need help with this problem, and am not sure if I even organized this post well enough to understand because I'm kind of rushing right now (I don't know why though) and am anxious.

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