Help with IED? Please.

Hello all, my name is Brina and I am living with IED. I want to change, I don't want to be this way, hurting the people I love and feeling so much over things that are so trivial. I'm sick and tired of not knowing how to stop when the feelings takes over. My emotions go from 0-150 in a split second before I have time to even think it out. Mental breakdowns (of varying degrees) happen at least a couple times per week and are wreaking havoc on the lives of my loved ones. I hate the person I am when I get like that. I'm totally normal and am (what others say) a kind person. I feel like it's this part of me, this darkness that takes over (sorry to be melodramatic) me. I feel like I'm in hiding, and fighting this person on a daily basis. Some background, I was prenatally exposed which I think is a big contributing factor, I have jumped out of a moving car because I was so upset once, and I come from a long line of bipolar family members. I just want help, to be happy, and help my family to be happy. So please, if you have any ideas that might work, throw them out there. I've been in a lot of therapy and have tried breathing/meditation type things. I've also been on too many medications to even remember them all. So any words of advice or positive words would greatly appreciated.
Thanks for your time,
Brina

Of all the things that you have tried, which one you think it is more closely to be helping?

And from all the times that you've lost control, do you think that there were circumstences previous to the situation that made yoh prone to act li ke this, in a way that what made you mad was just a trigger? May be anxiety, sadness, stress or something else that you were feelong for a long period?

-- Tue Jun 02, 2015 6:23 pm --

Of all the things that you have tried, which one you think it is more closely to be helping?

And from all the times that you've lost control, do you think that there were circumstences previous to the situation that made yoh prone to act li ke this, in a way that what made you mad was just a trigger? May be anxiety, sadness, stress or something else that you were feelong for a long period?