***** INSOMNIA SUCESS STORY*****
Ok here goes... I felt it was my duty to give back my story and give all you guys hope. I remember searching for sucess stories and finding like 2! It was such a disaappointment. I felt like I was so doomed because no one seemed to get better.. but I want you to know they do. Unfortunately once your better, its SO easy to forget to give back and help all those in your shoes once. I too was like you all once.. I went through a year of hell. I couldnt sleep one night , and it went on for a year. During that year I thought I was going crazy, I had melt downs, I thought I would never be able to live a normal life..I thought my husband would eventually tire of my problems and leave me, I thought I had no life.. I was even suicidal at times.. Pretty intense stuff to randomly happen to a young 30 year old woman, with a blossoming career, and happy life.. Scary times, but folks you CAN get better. I did! Let me tell you how it happened.
At first I thought, gee my body is stressed, my mind is stressed, thats why I cant sleep. I need to slow down, I need to relax.. Ok first for me this was the WORST thing I could do. The more down time I had the more I obsesivvely thought about my problems, and focused on it. This only made it worse! I took time off of work and again, TERRIBLE Idea. I would just sit at home crying.. my husband thought I was losing it..
When did I start to get better? When I finally was like F&$# this.. I am still going to do everything I want to do. I started making plans with friends, I went out, yes I was a zombie at times, and yes I was out of it at times, but sometimes my fun and activities were enough to pull me out of this mental state. The more and more I engaged my mind to focus on fun and other activites and people around me the more my insomnia began to fade in to the background. I started thinking of fun times and experiences I was having at bed time, and when I went to bed thinking about those things, before you knew it I was out! I adopted a reading habit and found some awesome series to read right before bed time with a little reading light. This made me excited to go to bed, kind of changed my perception about bed time, because before I dreaded it! I went through the girl who series, then hunger games, now game of thrones.. Sometimes I would just read lighthearted chickliterate books where were awesome as well. I always make my bed in the morning because it is so much more welcoming to get in to in the evening. To this day I still sleep with ear plugs. CVS has these yellow and pink striped ones that are SO soft, and sometimes an eye mask. Back in the day when my insomnia was horrible I had a little bed side table set up and I always had cough drops, because my mouth would get dry, a glass of water, some scentsy candle scents,, (sometimes when I would get anxiety attacks I would just grab these and deeply inhale the smell of the scents,, it had a calming affect on me) and a heating pad - when my anxiety was so bad sometimes the feeling of having somthing warm over my tummy or back would help me get to bed. and also I had a teddy bear.. yes at 30.. people laugh at me but having things that bring you comfort when you go to bed really help. And lastly goose down pillows.. boght them at costco.. and they go EVERYWHERE with me.
It was a slow process to get where I am now.. Months and months would go by and slowly I was improving.. Each month, I slept a little more and a little longer. Now 1.5 years later, I can finally say I have this thing beat. I sleep like a champ, I take naps, I fall asleep on the couch,, I annoy my husband now because I am always falling asleep when we start watching TV

.. But 2 years ago I would not sleep for 4 days straight! people.. If I can get better, so can you!!!!. I hope my story helps you guys and gives you guys some tips, or at least gives you a little ease of mind that anything is possible.
Also, I wanted to let you guys know that in my case it is suspected that a disease ( bacterial or parasitic) caused my body to have almost a nervous breakdown which started my horrible journey with insomnia. If you are feeling wiered for no reason out of the blue and have suspected that you picked up some disease somewhere,, have it checked out.. Sometimes diseases become very neurological and can totally creat insomnia.. Just wanted to let you guys know that..
Good luck to everyone. I will say a special prayer to all of you that you will all find your way.. Just remember to Keep on going. Dont stop your life for this problem, that is the worst thing you can do. Get busy and do things,, for me, that was the number one helpful thing to beat this.
SHea