Dr says Im not bipolar but severe ADD

For 7 years I have had the diagnosis of bipolar. IT is associated with a pain on my right side. I just had my 5th surgery this time my galbladder taken out. I? used to be able to drink caffeine like crazy. Tonight the group home took me to Starbucks. I am stil lunable to hold down food. I threw up the coffee but I swear I am now having a manic episode. I also think I have somataform disorder as this is my 5th surgery for right sided pain and it has not resolved it. They think im nuts at my group home and surgeons because I did not realize the abbreviation for generic Vicodin and generic vicuprofen are the same and I was sure it was my tylenol allergy which causes right sided pain and bipolar symptoms. I threw up all the coffee I drank but I am definitely hyperverbal and not sleeping. I am two weeks post up and still taking pain pills everyday. I had these exact same symptoms in 1999 and they thought it was somatoform disorder. To humor me they put stents in my kidney and huge blood clots came out. But I went to the best nephrologist in s cal and she found nothing in her scan. Three weeks later they found a lipoma. Two weeks after that another hospital said they saw hydronephrosis but did a ct and said it must have resolved itself. I have a uti a high white count and gallstones. I couldn't tolerate fat and in 99 my hida scan said my gallbladder was only functioning at 30 percent. So they took it out.
I see the shrink tomorrow and I am positive they are going to put me on a hold because two weeks post op I cannot even hold down ensure. I am acting anorexic. I had a suicide attempt 3 years ago where i SWALLOWED 400 pills and absolutely nothing happened. With all this GI stuff Im throwing up pills no one is giving me. I live in board and care so I do not give my own meds. I was thrown out of my last board and care last Friday for throwing up in the lobby and again big pills that have nothing to do with my current meds were coming out so they assumed I had made another suicide attempt. My family is burnt out so they called the owner of another board and care who got me in there in the first place and I am now staying at her place. The place I lived in before had 198 people both places im age inappropriate by 40 years. After 5 surgeries and 20 years and no resolving of the pain and the bizarre symptoms my family has had it with me. I went psychotic 4 years after experiencing the right sided pain the first time was hospitalized for schizoaffective. I have had only the one suicide attempt swallowing 400 pills and woke up the next morning just fine. I am allergic to all antipsychotics typical and atypical. Zyprexa given to me for depression caused the psychosis in 2003. I had two head injuries in 1989 and in between the big earthquake. I was around 26. I managed to live until about 40 before the first bipolar episode. My current psychiatrist does not believe I am bipolar but severely ADD and ocd with hypochondriasis. My liver test are all coming back high and my thyroid tests subclinical low. I am also 2 years since my last antipsychotic which caused excess prolactin and now I am showing other pregnancy hormones in my urine and I am 3 years post menopausal due to again another surgery for the right sided pain. I burnt everybody out in my life and my nuclear family has been supporting financially but not emotionally. My problem is my shrink has a professional crush on my Dad who has no idea who I am and is telling the DR's that I have his symptoms. There was a family meeting with my shrink and both my Father and my sister attended. I had an appointment with the Dr and was to meet them there but the DR sent me to the ER for surgery. I missed the meeting but my sister and my Father are both beautiful and charming but can describe me as a monster. I have known this shrink for three years. He was my outpatient shrink for 1 year and when I left day treatment ama because they ignored an allergic reaction to an antipsychotic my ?Dad detoxed me and I returned to the first guy. Here is the deal as much as I hated the shrink at the program I left AMA he said I was bipolar and would have a manic episode if I didn't stay on either an antipsychotic or mood stabilizers. I am allergic to almost every drug and some psych drugs can make me a real ass. But it is 5:15 in the A.M and I haven't slept. I did od on the caffeine today after a year free of it. A previous drug made me sensitive to it. The internet said it helped hypothyroidism so I had 8 shots whcih I could easily have done in the old days. I threw it up so I shouldnt be up this late. Could I be bipolar with somataform disorder? My manic episodes coinside with the right sided pain. Another really bizarre thing about me unless I chain smoke I have manic episodes too. Nicotine replacement therapy does not help. I id just spend a week smoke free in the hospital and boom two weeks later my first manic episode since the last time I tried to quit. Yes I know my symptoms sound psychotic but this is what is going on and I cannot believe it is 5:15 and I am not sleeping!

Hey,

You've been through a lot. Where would you like to be in life right now? I mean, what would you prefer to be doing? Moreover, how could you get there?

A somatoform disorder could be what what you have, and likely candidates include - yes - hypochondriasis or conversion disorder. You mentioned having manic episodes a few times in your post, but maybe they are founded/based on the somatisation. I'm not sure... I don't understand why the doctor arrived at ADD. Do you present any ADD symptoms?

Going back to the questions that I have asked at the beginning, I think that a good first step would be to either be medication-free or to arrive at a medication that agrees with your body and that you feel comfortable staying on for the foreseeable future. Then, it would be about sorting out your diet - i.e. by eating foods that you like and that don't upset your gastrointestinal tract.. After that, it would be about making ever more steps to improve your quality of life and to become more independent

Listen to me: You could spend a whole lifetime trying to figure out what's wrong with you, but sometimes it's just best to get on with things and maybe later you'd figure out what was going on all of those years ago when you look back...

Kevin