Well I'm.. almost 16. I've been on sleeping medication that was meant to help with sleeping and moods. My doctor just switched me to a higher dosage of antidepressants, and a sleeping medication that is meant just for sleep. The problem is, it makes me feel like I have the worst flu I've ever had. I'm going to talk to my doctor about trying something else, but of course I have to wait for my mom to make an appointment, and I'm concerned about a few things.:
- When I'm alone at night, or alone in general, I get really paranoid.
- I'm pretty sure I've started to hear things that aren't there.
- I have bad anxiety to go along with it.
- Also, sometimes it's like I get.. stuck. I feel like I need to be doing something (and get that panicky feeling), but I'll be extremely bored of everything and have nothing to do. It's to the point where if I'm bored enough I feel like killing myself because everything is so blah. And it's like nothing ever matters, and continuing to constantly feel like $#%^ for months would never seem worth it. And I hate it because it isn't anyone's job to entertain me, and my life shouldn't have to be extremely exciting all the time. I can't just be content, I either feel like $#%^, or feel wonderful. Anything in between feels pointless.