My self prescribed insomnia treatment sucks

So for the past few months I have found a really not so healthy, but a works every time, sort of treatment. I have really severe insomnia. First, I take .5 to 1 mg of klonopin before I take 4-5 benedryl, otherwise the benedryl will give me an anxiety attack. Neither of these are strong enough to put me out so I have about 4 shots of vodka but i take it just as if it were medicine. Usually this is enough to put me out. If not I will take another benedryl, vodka shot, or .25mg of klonopin. I want this to stop but anything a doc has ever given me alone.. or even with another med (ie. seroquel and klonopin or seroquel and restoril) has never worked. I make very little money and I want to see a doc that can really help me but don't know where to go or even where to start looking for inexpensive treatment.. or a doctor that will actually try everything and anything to get me away from this regimen that is totally bad for my health. I think if I'm upfront with a dr. about what I take they wont prescribe me a thing. what do I do? Any any advice?

My friend, I am going to close this thread for discussion because we cannot have people self-prescribing here. What you must do is phone your local doctor, arrange an appointment, and then go to see him/her at the arranged time and date. You should also be honest about what you have done.

Kevin