Hello. I've been suffering from terrible insomnia since mid-May. I'm pretty sure it manifested from my stressing out about my new job (which I began around then). While I know that stress can lead to temporary insomnia, this is a bit beyond temporary.
Since May, I have had nothing bothering me (besides the insomnia; my job's pretty easy), so I have a feeling that the stress I endured in May did something to my brain. Fried it or something. I feel like this could be permanent. I either get really, really brief sleep (probably less than an hour's worth, I'm not kidding), or I don't sleep at all. Lately, I've been able to get much more sleep, but it consists of me waking up over and over and having lots of dreams. (So I'm definitely not getting into that coveted deep sleep zone. Although, strangely enough, there was one night a few weeks ago where I was so tired, I actually managed to fall asleep for hours and wake up with that awesome 'Huh? What time is it?' feeling that good sleepers take for granted. So maybe that natural ability is buried deep in the recesses of my brain.)
What's stranger is that, most of the time, I feel physically fine. There are days when I feel really tired, understandably, but it's almost as if my body is adjusting to what little sleep I get. I do take medicine for it, but it stopped working a long time ago. (Seroquel off-label for sedation- I think I must have a really high tolerance.) I could try other prescriptions if my psychiatrist is willing to offer them, but again, I do fear the tolerance thing.
Anyway, yeah. Suck City. To wrap it up, are there any of you out there who are well-versed in sleep as it relates to the brain? Have you ever heard of someone's brain getting zapped from stress or worry and just never being the same again? Do you know if my stress depleted some chemicals or damaged some receptors or processes in my brain? I'm not necessarily asking how to fix that- the human brain and sleep are two great mysteries as is. But if you have any ideas about what's going on in my noggin, let me know. Thank you!