Crazy insomnia developed overnight

Here is my story as concise as I can make it...

I had a business trip and was flying out at 6:15AM Monday morning. I have never been a great sleeper so knew there was no point in trying to fall asleep earlier. I went to sleep at around 11 and woke up at 4 to go to the airport. I slept on the plane flight there for a couple of hours. That evening at my destination I had trouble falling asleep. I figured that was to be expected because of my naps and the fact I went from West Coast to Midwest. I think I still fell asleep at around 12:00AM. There was nothing uncommon about any of this.

But then that night I woke up at 4:00AM to go to the restroom. While in the restroom, a terrible thought entered my mind: "You are not going to be able to sleep the rest of the night". And like a self-fulfilling prophecy, this is exactly what happened. The next night, the exact same thing happened. Went to sleep at 11, woke up at 3:30AM and couldn't go back to sleep.

Finally, I returned home last night. On the flight back, I am not sure if I slept or just hallucinated. It was definitely not a deep sleep. But I still had problems falling asleep last night. I started freaking out and feeling incredibly anxious. I began to experience night sweats. Somehow, miraculously, I still fell asleep probably around 12:30AM. This time I awoke at 5:00AM. Again could not return back to sleep.

So for the past three nights, I have gotten 4, 4.5 and 4.5 hours of sleep. I am freaking out now cause I read that the bed should be associated with sleep. I am not associating the bed with anxiety. How do I get these self-sabotaging thoughts out of my mind?

You can take a sleep aid to get back on a good sleep schedule: Benadryl, melatonin, benzodiazepine if your doctor will prescribe it, or sleep medicine. Usually a beer or two will make you sleepy too if you're not on other meds or opposed to drinking.

I loved the way the title of this thread is ironic (if you read it literally).

My soh.

I have insomnia.

It's actually really annoying me now.

I wish I could get on a plane and get some jet lag so I could just sleep for a few days.

I'm getting crazy headaches because of it (I'm prone to migraines but they're not migraines).

Brain will just not stop ticking over I guess. I just need to shut off or I may have a stroke. Don't normally worry about my physical health but that one is starting to worry me and I think a vicious circle has started. Worry about stroke, can't sleep, can't sleep, could have stroke. It's so neurotic. And that's annoying. I really dislike being neurotic.

I'm AS and when my anxiety gets too high, I get neurotic. When my anger gets too high, I get psychotic. I'm wondering if I should just bite the bullet, get really angry at myself for the insomnia, throw some plates, and do some hoovering and maybe I will sleep.

I may try that tomorrow.