I give up...I've tried it all... *triggers*

Yes, melatonin, every natural substance you can think of.

Right now I'm on Adderall 30mg IR 2x day, Lorazepam 1mg 3x day (I take as much as I need when needed) and Ambien 10mg 1x a day.

The other night I took 4 ativan and 4 ambien and stayed awake for a day and a half.

Yesterday I wanted to get some stuff done, so I took 60mg of Adderall at once and passed out.

WTF is wrong with me?

PS - I've been clean from IV heroin for 24 months....I'm thinking it may be the only solution to sleep.

So.. to clarify something..

when you took a stimulant you fell asleep.. when you took a sedative you stayed awake.. sound about right?

Any chance that you have adhd..?

Just a thought.. it's just that if you do, stimulants will generally work in the opposite way on you to most other people.. although they don't make you fall asleep, they'll certainly dampen down all those thoughts racing around to a level that will make it easier for you to relax..

What are you like with drinking coffee or exercising before you try and sleep..?
Do you have a good sleep hygiene routine..?


Huge huge well dones for being clean from heroin for 24 months - that's a really lovely thing to read.

Do not under any circumstances go back to using it please.. go and have a talk with your doc instead. If you explain everything then i'm sure they have some decent suggestions for you.
xx

Thanks for the kudos. It's nice someone recognizes the accomplishment. My family seems to think it's not hard at all. It's as easy as just don't do i . Such is not with dope.

Yes, I do have an ADHD diagnosis and that's why I'm on the adderal . Maybe I should try taking it at night?

And I refuse to tell any psychiatrist or PCP my addiction history due to treatment in the past. I'll keep that to a CAC.

You're more than welcome.. getting and staying clean is such an achievement and one you definitely deserve kudos for xx


Okay.. good, the ADHD makes this nice and clear.
I was reading your post before and nothing aside from ADHD made sense to me.

''CAC''..?

I can completely understand not wanting to tell your psych/doc if you've had issues with being poorly treated in the past..
I'm sorry that you've had that experience - it's not okay at all.
Just please tell them if you find yourself struggling more than you can cope with..

Do speak to your doctor about your sleep issues though and explain that the only thing that helps you sleep is the stimulant.. if he/she has experience of sleep issues in patients with ADHD, they'll have seen this happen before and be able to prescribe you a night time dose of the adderal (or something else if they think that's better/safer for your system).

I heard if you get addicted to ativan (benzodiazepine) you will need more in the future.
Also you are going to be more anxious.

you said u take 1mg 3x a day. That is a lot. I thought i was addicted to ativan and i'm taking 1mg per day. you take 3x more than me.

Sorry to hear about your insomnia. I get insomnia where I can't sleep for 30-40 hours 2-3 times a week.
Your case is more severe.

U can talk to a doctor about ur sleep cos u cant function like that