Definitely an insomniac....

For years.

Last night I stayed up until about 7:30 in the morning, work at 9:45... Luckily, I just keep my own hours and it's not important as long as I don't go over 40 a week at my job... I have come in later than usual before ("errands?")...

I've been like this for years. It's probably part of depression/dysthymia/AvPD or whatever the hell to call it, me. Besides depression, the others don't seem like separate diagnoses as much as descriptions of what happens when you are depressed for a long time (15 years)...

Sometimes I think it's because my days are so dissapointing and boring that if I don't get as much in at night the whole day is that much more depressing. I don't even party most nights anymore (that's not how it started, either)... I'll just stay up compulsively and watch TV or movies and read the net...

I don't know anymore. I don't think I've consciously "gone to bed" for about as long as I can remember, usually I pass out on the couch (though sometimes I occassionally lie down in the bed and do fall asleep, but it's usually in clothes. This pattern wreaks havoc on eyeglasses, but it's better than when I used to leave my contacts in for a couple of months day and night...

Yep you sound like one. Kind of like me only i get a few more hours of sleep a day. I get about 4-6. I just cant get to sleep. It pisses me off because during the day i am so tired but when i try to get to sleep i barley can.

It's almost 4:00 and I have to wake up in about 4 and a half hours... I wonder when I'll get to sleep. I will want to smoke a cigarette before going to bed, then I might get a 2nd wind and stay awake or pick up the guitar (that seems to be happening lately, I let a whole bunch of time slide by, then come inside after the purpoted last cigarette and start playing my electric guitar or I'll just run through the senior recital classical program from college days- which is 30 minutes but then I just think about college and how I wasn't happy with the recital performance and other people at school who spent more time practicing and didn't work and I'm nowhere close to what I should have been with it).... It's like retarded free roaming. Maybe I'll make that can of soup that I was going to make for dinner 8 or so hours ago...

Do you smoke everytime you want/try to go to bed?

No, it's just a nice cap on the end of the day...

I ended up going to sleep around 6:30 and was a little late for work in the morning... oh well. Just took a nap and am probably back on the roller coaster for tonight...

k. I took a nap today too, its best way i can get sleep it seems that during the day it is easier to get to sleep for me.
Good luck with trying to get sleep tonight

Oakchair wrote:k. I took a nap today too, its best way i can get sleep it seems that during the day it is easier to get to sleep for me.
Good luck with trying to get sleep tonight

3:23 and counting and I have a couple of cigarettes left... who knows.... thanks.

I actually took out the trash before I went to bed. For some retarded reason, we have an extra trash can this week. For an even more retarded reason, it has a hole in the lid, and SOMEBODY (whoever left it?) put it right under the edge of the carport's roof (I live in a quasi-duplex- two houses, one lot, connecting outdoor carport, there are three of these lots on the street = a lot of trashcans)... anyway, it had rained and it had 2 feet of water in it. So, I had to dump out the water to move it and clean a little, then I took a walk for a few minutes. Then went back home and crashed for a little while before work. I stayed up all night watching movies. No attention span tonight... Slept a long time after work again, maybe 3 hours...

well its good that you are at least getting some sleep. Maybe try not taking a nap after work, so you are really tired at night. Maybe it will work.

I slept half decent last night about 5-6 hours.