Body Jerk / Chemical Imbalance

This is to share with whom may relate: A few years ago I had manifested an apparent fear based, PTSD induced insomnia from hell .
This over critical/perfectionist/passive aggresive/rage aholic/ultra sensitive person of 51 yrs. had a successful life on the outside. Beautiful family,moderate financial success, athletic ect ect. I also battled TMS, chronic lower back pain that came and went since I was twenty.
Ok heres my story: My employees rejected my over the top personality and created a difficult 6 years that resulted in 2 Afib events and then the death of my mother put me over the edge. Some call it a nervous break down but I have since concluded it to be PTSD. Years of over compensating for a mirid of false beliefs ( insecurity) I mentally fell apart.
The biggest hurdle other than confronting my Ego was SEVERE insomnia. For 3 years I took every thing and anything to go to sleep and nothing worked. Every night my wonderful wife would message me to sleep only to be violently jerked awake by some unknown cause. I would sleep for about 4 hrs every third day.
During this time I read every book I was drawn to and surrendered to the Universe. I actually thought I was losing my mind. The interesting part of this is that my health got better? Afibs disapeared and I was no longer taking any type of medication .. ZERO.. I had simply quit resisting. This was contrary to my control freak self of yesteryear.
Today I'm 55 and have found much peace in my readings. My heart beats wonderfully calm and I sleep normally again. I tried a cup of coffee the other night just to test these subconscious beliefs we think are true and I slept just fine..
It is my opinion that we must become conscious of our false beliefs and let Love ( truth) disolve them. Our emotions create many unwelcome chemicals into our bodies if we don't address them. I now have become a student of Love .. making sure not to become obsessive in the process... OBSESSIVENESS is of fear.. not Love. I hope this may help someone ... this experience was to powerful not to share. Thank you, and peace to you all, Mak in Mayer