My mother takes things just because she can....

My mom took my fan out of my room because it has a heater feature. Just for the record, I have some serious OCD. The thing is that fan was perfect simply because it makes the sound that neutralizes all of my thoughts that are screaming constantly (many of them i don't consciously think of on my own). I tried explaining to her that i cannot sleep without a sound because of the screaming thoughts. She just said i have to deal without the fan.

Of course my dad, the worst one, heard and told me I was being a b!+(h. My thoughts get so radical when i don't hear anything! When I asked why they wont let me have this fan back, they said that it has a heater on it and i do not need a heater (heat mode can be turned off though). I DO need a fan though. I'm seriously considering doing whatever it takes to get comfortable. There is nothing that my parents are doing that is making anything better.



***heres how I got into the mental hospital July '06 (abridged)***
The night before I got into an arguement with my mother and won. A few minutes later, my dad busted in the room and grabbed me by the neck and slammed my head against the ground 4 times. Then, he kept kicking me until I was out of my room, on my knees. After that, more kicking until i was at the end of my hallway (around 12 feet long). He grabbed me by the neck again and started to choke me. FiNALLY he let me go and i just sat there huddled on the ground all fetal and he went back to bed.

My mom stayed up that night and watched me so I wouldn't attempt suicide or a runaway or something (never tried or spoke of it in the first place)and she took me to Gulfport Memorial Behavioral Hospital to basically get away from my physically abusive father.
They files numerous DHs reports and there was no help from them. I Do not think any of this is legal. My mom is mentally abusive in ways I have no explained and my dad is and incompetent, hot-headed, alcoholic that will do anything to feel like he is the man of the house.




I WANT OUT!!!