...control?

hi i been very impulsive all of my life maybe because of my childhood
i have been in may bad situation because of this and until i was 18 then slowed down a bit but still many time comes back i do things that i dont really feel comfortablewith after or maybe days later but at the same time i dont feel that bad about , i just think is just the way it is , i can control extreme impulses but some time i feel like i cant almost control my self and have to think hard to not do something stupid, even when i know i have done many stupid things but life keeps going and i cant go back to fix it , so ... yeah i just wanted to say a bit a know if there is any way i can get some help , i try going to a consultant but i think they never are able to get inside my mind , im a carismatic person and no one can think of my inpulses and how extreme i can be sometimes .i dont like violence, but the problem is what i say and things i do and the way my brain fuctions. i am in a relationship and works fine and socialize sometime but dont have friends, people dont like my strong opinions and many time because of my impulses they get offended and lose contact.
i dont think drugs will help , i dont like them and i dont really feel like going to a psych to have them put me on drugs or what ever, also i can have big mood swings like i dont know what, well ..i think this is good for the first time, if anyone wants to share something great, at least i would not feel like i am the only person with this issues