Being ashamed about 'being sick'.

Hi everybody.
I developed hypochondriasis early last summer and it's gotten a lot worse...
I'm always afraid that I have some kind of really dangerous disease like cancer,
HIV or similar things. I don't know how it started but I think it has something
to do with my mental health overall, and that it was really improved, and then
it just turned and then I started fearing for my life with cancer and so on.
I had a psyciatrist the past 2,5 years but I NEVER dared to talk to her about
how I felt with all this stress and anxiety because I feel ashamed and like a fool...
Does anyone feel like this?

I know that for me, this is NOT funny, I know a lot of people who laughed at people
who have hypochondriasis, and I can even tell I did that too when I was younger,
now I feel like an ass that I laughed at some condition that has more or less taken
over my life. Now my psyciatrist will end her practice in the clinic and will move to
a new place, so I feel like I can't talk to her at all about this even though I'm really
safe with her... I have started to talk to a new psyciatrist in the new town that I moved to,
but I don't feel safe with the new one as I am with her, so this is really hard for me,
and I don't know if they can help me or not, because they are not sure that I'm 'sick' enough...

I moved to a new town pretty far away from my old one and I have no help here
yet, even though I really need it... And I don't think I can take this so much longer!
Yesterday I had panic attacks because I thought I had cancer in my stomach even
though I pretty much KNOW it's not and that it's gastritis because I am too stressed
about things, especially about diseases and so on. I really don't know what to do.
Just by jumping in here and reading about people like me who have similar problems
and way of thinking helps a great deal. Thank you for sharing your stories.

Hi. I'm just going to answer this becuase its been a while and no one else has answered. It looks like the forum might be quiet these days. I have only just arrived here myself and haven't even had a good look around yet.

All i wanted to say was that you should talk to one or both your psychiatrists at the next opportunity about your fears. Try to put aside the feeling of being silly or whatever. You have to be honest with your therapists if you want to get the best help they can offer. Its worth it.

Good luck.