Hallucinations

I've been having hallucinations with my Hypersomnia. I was sat down last week with the wife watching Castle (a great show by the way). When it was over I asked her what the deal was with the guy who was fixing the Jaguar car, she asked me what Jaguar car? I rewound the episode and it wasn't what I watched, it was completely different. I'm beginning to question if what really happens in my day to day life (when i'm not sleeping in bed) is actually real or not. This is getting very scary, I slept for 17 hours today and this was exactly how my dad and a great friend of ours were prior to being diagnosed with cancer. I'm petrified and think my doctor thinks i'm imagining it all. If this is how life is going to be I don't want anymore of it to be truthful. I'm fed up of people being short with me because I can't concentrate properly. My wife and son are helpful but others can be downright nasty about it.

Chrisplettuce, did you actually get tested for cancer? If the doc says you're ok, then you've probably got nothing to worry about. It's understandable that you're sensitive about this, because of what happened to your dad and friend, but it doesn't mean that it will also happen to you.

chrisplettuce wrote:I've been having hallucinations with my Hypersomnia. I was sat down last week with the wife watching Castle (a great show by the way). When it was over I asked her what the deal was with the guy who was fixing the Jaguar car, she asked me what Jaguar car? I rewound the episode and it wasn't what I watched, it was completely different. I'm beginning to question if what really happens in my day to day life (when i'm not sleeping in bed) is actually real or not. This is getting very scary, I slept for 17 hours today and this was exactly how my dad and a great friend of ours were prior to being diagnosed with cancer. I'm petrified and think my doctor thinks i'm imagining it all. If this is how life is going to be I don't want anymore of it to be truthful. I'm fed up of people being short with me because I can't concentrate properly. My wife and son are helpful but others can be downright nasty about it.

I have just spent the past two years seemingly having to recover from heavy psychological loads that I had not effectively shed. I came to the point of having to sleep almost what seemed to be constantly, I would sometimes make jokes about myself becoming narcoleptic as my grandmother had seemed to be years before she passed. I had came to hallucinate. I had grown up with several individuals that did not have ready access to adequate mental healthcare and that had made me all the more aware of what my condition could grow into if I did not maneuver through each episode accordingly. What worked? It still happens sometimes. I am still so sensitive in this way, but it is a treasure to me now. I slept when I had to. Luckily, my children are a little older and my husband is an amazing father so I could rest without much worry over those things. My personal success outside of the home is not what I would like for it to be yet, but I am working in home healthcare and my aim is to make the difference that I know would have mattered for us years ago.

There are times I have to take something to help me sleep without waking up. I don't want to necessarily take notes about my dreams and when I realize I hallucinate, I don't usually share it. I had a lot of amazing support from forums and social networks designed for coorespondence about such things and I had such without necessarily giving my own experiences as they were.

Sometimes the things I would hallucinate about helped me to better understand reality's depths in such a way that I became so much more effective in connecting with the most difficult people. The relationships that had been so severely worn came to be more valuable... better understood and appreciated... and that grows still.

The days that are particularly stressed can provoke a level of sleep from me that I do not always welcome, and this is where I seem to remain.

It seems our bodies require a level of sleep that we have yet to achieve, doesn't it?