dealing with college& my life

I'm a female to male transsexual in my 3rd year of college. It's always difficult. I'm seeing a therapist every two weeks but it's still very hard for me. Yesterday I made an appointment at the counseling center on campus at my university as advised by health center to help me throughout the week before seeing my other therapist.

I almost wish it wasn't so bad that I could transition after college but I CANNOT wait any longer. My appointment to get blood drawn is in 24 days from today. I've waiting too long. If all is well I can start HRT by the end of this year. It's not a matter of choice, I NEED this.

But, at school everything is weird. I live in a single in the women's hall. In my classes everyone ignores me. I feel like dropping out sometimes but I don't even tell my therapist that. In theory I want to graduate and attend graduate school, but at the moment, it's a struggle to attend classes.

I manage to meet people but they see me leaving this residence hall and see me as a liar. I know one other transguy but it doesn't help as much as I thought it would, besides he graduated last May.

I don't know what to do anymore. Nothing around here really motivates me anymore. I feel hopeless.

Hi, tguy91! Well, you could start by telling your therapist about all this too.
You could explain the situation to the people you meet before hand, so they'll know why you're there, maybe.
Hmmmm, you could try to figure out if you have anything in common with anyone in your class. I went through stuff like that. I didn't have any friends for two years in high school and then it was hard to find someone too in college, but I did find a couple of friends eventually.

If I hear you right, it's chilly out there, and you need a warm blanket. A hostile living situation can be rough. The logistics of making friends sounds like a challenge.

There's a range of people and groups out there. Many will go bug-eyed if you bring up this topic. I would consider it rather personal.

You might think about relational support that is not specific to transgender. Join a class at a gym so it's just not an issue.

Your therapist is guaranteed to accept you. And perhaps guide you to a group.

And of course, it's possible you'll get by with the pleasant vibes from the internet.