It's been a while since I've posted anything on this account and I just wanted to say that I've made a lot of progress; no more mood shifts, depressive thoughts, over-analyzing, anxiety or anything that I've previously mentioned on this forum.
I still have issues with these areas, but they are no longer in control. So, I guess, there is hope.
Thank you for all of you who have supported me through this exhausting journey. I still, from time to time, need help; just not nearly as much as I have needed.
P.S.: I apologize for deleting my posts - I was afraid of people "knowing my thoughts" mixed with a bit of paranoia. I also apologize for the ones that I've hurt here - even though I was in much pain, it's still no excuse for the way I behaved. I still cannot maintain a normal level of relationship, but at least I'm not as hurtful as I've been.