No one understands me

The last 10 months have been the hardest of my whole life. I know there's lots of people with real problems but these have been the most depressing, sad and difficult times for me.

I moved to another country 5 years ago and my life just turned around. Everything changed. I'm surrounded by a group of people who are the most immature and hypocrite human beings I've ever met. I don't like the way this country works, I don't like the way people from this country treat me, and I'm not talking about racism or anything, it's just that no one cares about me here, and now, 5 years after I left my home country, I think no one cares about me over there either.

I've always been misunderstood. On the outside, I have good relationships with everybody, I'm very open and nice to everyone but I've never really felt that can relate to anyone. I thought that when I started medical school things would be different and I'd find people with similar interests and ways of thinking. But it's been a few years and I still feel like I'm alone. I don't fit anywhere. I LOVE what I'm doing, I think medicine is fascinating and I enjoy reading articles, books or anything that makes me understand life a little better...and my "friends", who apparently love their careers as much as me, don't relate, and I've always been pushed away from them. The only time I enjoy with them is when we go party because everyone's drunk and I don't have to think about how stupid and empty they really are. They do things behind my back, criticize as much as they can....I'm tired of this bs, I want to find people I can open up to, we're humans, we NEED someone to be there for us, I don't think I can do it alone. And when I think about my future, I see the same people, the same country, the same bs....

I like to think we all deserve to be happy but life keeps putting all these obstacles in my way...

Sounds like you moved to america. I don't think any one understands me either. Its a typical thing over here to be treated inhumanely, the good people are probably hiding some were safe out of the crowds. It really is draining not being able to relate to others, I wish you could find at liest one person to talk with. Most people only pay attention if you have some thing they want, the good ones just like being wanted around and like to be around you. I guess that's why your here, to find some hope. I wish you luck.

I know what you mean. No one understands me either, so I had to adapt, and pretend I liked them, just as much as they pretend they like me. That way we can all pretend we like each other, but we all know we don't really, and that allows us to do everything we want without each other, if we can help it. It doesn't seem like it now, but you'll get used to it. It does take time. It took me personally a decade, but it takes practice.

All is well! until you understands yourself. I know it's very hard to digest when no one cares about you anymore, but why would we need that every time, can't we be friends to ourselves? Why do we need some one to be there for us every time. I had this problem too but it helped me a lot to know more things about myself, I started noticing inside me which flushed away this crap that I need some one to be there to share my thoughts with. It might sounds to you kinda weird but this is my personal experience & I'm not the only one with this experience, you can find many more.

Maybe it's just me, but times are truly changing. People care more about their pocket and what brew they can slug down than each other. I feel very similar to you, but in my own way. I didn't leave the country as you did, but I left home and I had the same experience. I felt very isolated that everyone was into themselves and drinking and not so much into anything of interest or for that matter, each other. I moved back home and realized those relationships too were not as open and loving as I had once thought and really I saw everything for what it was.

The truth was you have to find within yourself the love to be able to get it back from people. And trust me I'm aware that 98 percent of the population is not even receptive to the self love. I started taking people more with a grain of salt, seeing what they were really worth. When I started being a bit more selfish, I started meeting or getting in contact with old friends who do have the same values and love as me.

When you care how people perceive you or you care about not being wanted, that is when nobody is there because even the good people will try to stay away from that energy. Have some more you time. Do more that makes you happy. I can promise you this, you will feel a lot better and have a lot of better relationships. If you think someone is a little slimey, even a little bit, dump them. It's about you remember, not them. Once you get that out of your system I promise people will flock to you and you will be able to find the good apples out of the bunch.

I know it's hard, but you'll find them. Just find it within yourself first.

that's no problem i understand you come on explain me your himself.

I have one term for you that you should research as it changed my life (for the better): CULTURE SHOCK. That is what is causing you distress, believe me. I went through it and what you write is almost a copy of my thoughts some 5 or so years back ...