Panic disorder!

Ok I'm now changing my post completely because I've realized that I flung myself into a panic disorder because while I questioned my beliefs and came to a conclusion I was happy with initially, I actually developed that temporary necrophobia because of the panic attacks I started having, and I developed a proneness to panic attacks because of the changes I've been struggling to process and adjust to (I have Asperger's Syndrome). Apart from a brief time while I was a kid, I didn't have a fear of death and certainly not to the extent of panic attacks, but I accidentally attached spiritual ponderings to the onset of panic attacks as that's when they started. I'm constantly reminding myself not to relate panic and anxiety to things that are around me and ordinary little thoughts that coincide with them, but to stick to adjusting to changes in my life these days and then they'll go away. Seems to be working! But I got so horribly sick physically and mentally (total hysterics, crying in hysterics, shaking from head to foot, vomiting, insomnia, feeling separate from myself...) and now I'm wondering how to properly prevent this from becoming a problem in the future (again, reminding self not to be afraid of it happening, just keen to keep myself healthy!). Feel like I'm doing pretty well considering I'm alone in recovering, but I'd like not to have to recover again, rather not get here in the first place. Day 6 and still not recovered properly, much improved as I've had only brief spells of high anxiety and no full-on attacks today, but still feeling quite sick physically and still feeling constant fear on a smaller scale than before, and exhausted from constantly reminding myself to not associate it with the wrong stuff, e.g. going online or tying my shoes! Now I'm in the wrong section as there are panic threads elsewhere... sorry guys!!!

Good for you! I feel the world is a simplier place than humans make it out to be. As for death. Death comes to us all. Here's a quote I read, "your essential energy patterns -- the essence of what you are -- will continue to exist long after your physical death-- becoming earth and sky-- moon and stars-- becoming all that is." Norrin Radd, aka the Silver Surfer.

It's ok to fear death. Only natural.

Hi,

It was unnecessary to come to to report your new-found 'faith' (or, rather, your lack of it), but it you have done and I will respond to you.

In my view, you are struggling to comprehend death because it's something that you have never experienced. Moreover, death is something that nobody will ever experience. Human nature doesn't know death. No human has ever experienced it. Why? - Because when our life ends, that's it. The human being is no long 'being'. It is difficult to comprehend, but the best example that I can give is of it being like an eternal sleep with no dreams.

As a future piece of advice: It's not wise to go around reporting that you are an atheist. If a person went around proclaiming their faith in God, I'm sure you'd be a little peeved.. ..? The same applies for going around proclaiming a lack of faith in Him/God.

Good luck,
Kevin

Ok sorry for sharing my lack of religion... should I edit it all out? And for the record, no, I wouldn't be peeved if others wrote about their beliefs, because everyone has the right to believe in whatever religion they choose or to be atheist. What does bother me are the kinds of people who try to force their beliefs on others. But anyways, if you need me to take out any reference to spirituality I will do so...

No no ... no need to do that. I just wanted to remind you about the reality of the situation. - i.e. that expressing your newfound atheism will bother some, just as when a person expressing new-found religious belief would do the same.

Not to worry my friend.

Kevin

Found the cure for my panic attacks. Emotional acceptance! I got so good at such a young age at repressing bad feelings and sensations, probably due to Asperger's, that I hadn't been letting myself feel!! How crazy!! It came to me when I had had a day of anxiety without full-blown panic attacks, and I went to bed and finally had one. I reacted with anger and frustration that I couldn't just get back to normal and go to sleep and be happy, and suddenly the panic went away...! Vanished completely. I lay there fuming in anger for a few moments, realizing it was happening for a reason, then I felt sad, and finally allowed myself to be sad. Then I felt worried about something else, then excited about something else, then angry at something else again... and eventually I smiled and went to sleep.
I now get anxiety as a warning sign when I'm holding in emotions again. It s a struggle to learn how to break the habit for good, but at least I know what the problem is. The panic attacks were a blessing in disguise best disguise I've ever seen...

Dunno if anyone interested will actually see this as it's not in the panic disorder section, but I thought it best to post my solution anyways just in case.