Feel Like Ive Completely Lost Hope, please help

So I did some therapy for some issues and it kind of put me in the opposite direction I wanted in life and because of this I feel like Ive completely lost hope in life. I feel it too, like my whole left side of my body (where my heart is) is completely weaker than my right side. Im seeing a psychiatrist right now for different reasons but he just ignores the fact that I've lost hope. Any suggestions or help you can give would be deeply appreciated.

Deftone2

Deftones fan? They're a band, in case you didn't know.

In what way did the therapy sessions put you in the reverse order? Did you let this fact known to the therapist at the time or did you just let it happen without speaking up? I know that it's easy to sit there and just take everything that the therapist/doctor says on-board, but we must give input into the sessions. We are essentially the customers in such situations, and we should have input into the direction that the sessions proceed.

Again, in what way(s) does your current psychiatrist ignore the fact that you've lost hope? In what way are you phrasing your emotions to him? If it helps, write down what's in your mind - and what you want from the psychiatrist - and then give it to him to read.

Take care my friend,
Kevin

Chucky wrote:Deftones fan? They're a band, in case you didn't know.

In what way did the therapy sessions put you in the reverse order? Did you let this fact known to the therapist at the time or did you just let it happen without speaking up? I know that it's easy to sit there and just take everything that the therapist/doctor says on-board, but we must give input into the sessions. We are essentially the customers in such situations, and we should have input into the direction that the sessions proceed.

Again, in what way(s) does your current psychiatrist ignore the fact that you've lost hope? In what way are you phrasing your emotions to him? If it helps, write down what's in your mind - and what you want from the psychiatrist - and then give it to him to read.

Take care my friend,
Kevin

Yeah Deftones fan.

I try explaining that my left side is completely weaker than my left. I don't know how to explain it but my life has completely turned upside down after shutting down. All i remember when this happened is saying to myself that Im done integrating (when im not) and then shutting down completely.

I've lost hope, I've felt life is so damn hard for long. I have DID. I am a host after I knew I'm not original even though I'm not sure. I put myself in jeopardy by saying to the original that I'm not going to be here forever so you need to do something. I've already done my best and my job has done. It's your job to fix this. After that I felt a fear that not mind but finally, I scared myself too. The next day, I've felt different my hope came back. I felt life isn't so hard anymore. I don't really know how this can happen but I think this is the good side of DID I have. Now my hope still be here.

I don't really this can help or not but this is my experience and we are all different.

All the best,
Ray

Hope has not left you. It is there as surely as the sun rises and sets. But you FEEL you have none. The issue is the feeling is fueled by a belief. If you once believed you had hope (and felt there was hope) you are invited by the universe to believe it again. But first you should connect to the idea. You are another product of the universe we all live. If there is hope for all, there is hope for you. Your belief is a common one, average you might say. Be average in your beliefs because that is how you define yourself. That is a freedom no one can take from you. You can chose to define yourself according to your worst moments or...your average since that more closely takes everything you are into consideration.
The drama of excess undermines the comfort of averageness.
Best

Ray, are you still around here? I hope you are doing Ok. How are things going for you?
With Concern,
One

onebravegirl wrote:Ray, are you still around here? I hope you are doing Ok. How are things going for you?
With Concern,
One

Hi, yes, I still around, mostly in DID forum. I am ok, compare with the last year. Things are a bit better, more stable.
Thanks for asking and hope you are ok.
Ray

I feel like iv'e lost hope too happiness doesn't exist for me
just depression that's all iv'e ever known & felt iv'e become
used to it i feel as if there's a dark cloud above my head that
follows my every move i can honestly say there's a few things
that bring me happiness & they are my favorite celebrities &
tv shows iv'e also gotten used to being alone it no longer affects
me like it used too i get my hopes up only to be let down i have
a hard time trusting others & i'm often abandoned