My hope is gone

Even tho ive only had GAD or what ive been told is GAD for a little over a month I think ive lost all hope...the thoughts and feelings im having are way too much for me to handle. Suicide has crossed my mind alot today and it seems like a good way out but even then the thought of death scares me and i cant comprehend what happens when you die. I feel so detached from my mind and body im seriosuly afraid of myself ... it really feels like im a different person but im not, hard to explain.

Hopefully tomorrow when i see my therapist something will change.

Hi Auldie,

Hang in there! I'm glad that you're seeing your therapist tomorrow. Are you on any new meds for your GAD?

Why have you lost hope? Is it because of your diagnosis/label?

Talk to me.

--Frayed

Hey thnx for the reply.

I was on lexapro but stopped and my therapist prescribed me risperdal but i stopped taking that aswell because it gave me weird thoughts. Well i was diagnosed with GAD but something isn't right here ever since saturday night something like happened in my brain and im really starting to feel detached from reality and not in a DP/DR kind of way

I can almost say with 100% certainty that i wont be able to make it too tomorrow, i feel really weird right now and i want to go the hospital or something because i really don't trust myself.

edit: ok this is even more weird and it's freaking me out, i just had like a conversation with myself i think in my head...i don't know if it was me just doing it or something else... i honeslty can't handle this.

second edit lol: im gunna go tell my mom i need to go to the hospital, thnx for the reply and i hope to talk to you again

I'm glad to hear that you're taking care of yourself, Auldie. You're self-aware, and you're doing what you need to do!

It might also be a side effect of stopping the meds...Make sure you tell the folks at the hospital everything that's going on. If it helps, write it down for them. Get all the information you can so that you're safe and so that you make a good recovery.

*Sending good thoughts your way.*

--Frayed

Also, if you need to talk to a live person so that you're OK while you get ready, call this number:

1-800-SUICIDE

(1-800-784-2433)

If you're in Canada, here's 2 links to crisis sites:
http://www.suicideinfo.ca/csp/go.aspx?tabid=77
(click on your region)

http://suicidehotlines.com/canada.html

Hope it helps! Take care of yourself and be safe.

<3

--Frayed

What you're doing is right, talking to someone and getting advice would help you a lot and will bring you back to the right track. Yeah, see your doctor, they are more experienced when it comes to this one. Just don't lose hope, remember you still have your family who loves and cares for you.

If you have been diagnosed and are scared remember this. YOU ARE NOT YOUR ILLNESS.
DISABLED DOES NOT MEAN UNABLE. What if the people diagnosed with cancer decided to kill themselves? We would never have survivors who gave hope to the world. Take a look at Lance Armstrong. If he has listened to his Doctors where would he be? Learn this early on my friend, you are still you and You decide what to do. Learn all you can, get the help you need, endure and become wiser and stronger in the process. Do not lie down so easily. You can do this. Others have. THERE IS HOPE!!!!
Now Is A time For COURAGE.
With Hope,
One

hope?! their is no HoPPE! it will only F*UCK your mind!

So without it, what do you have?
One

yeah...i have seen short times where it seemed hope was gone, devalued, and worthless. though i am not a very religious guy...this is something i found helpful.

i have heard said before...place your hope in god. what gave me comfort was my interpretation of this saying. i came to believe that i could give my hope to god for safe keeping...and when i needed it again it would be available for me, ya know, kept safe and never lost.