What Are Your Goals and Accomplishments?

Shen wrote:I'm still at a point in my life where I am seeking information. I'm seeking new loves and still associating with old ones. Every day I am constantly learning and soaking in the beauty of Earth, and the love of Shai Ming. I'm still young, physically and mentally. I'm hoping to spread the word of love and show the world there is hope, there is nothing that conquers love. Love conquers all.

What's Shai Ming?

I could probably look it up from google, but I'd rather hear it from you.

Shai Ming, taken from the Chinese word for "Sunshine", in simple terms is a symbol and metaphor for love.

We (the Shai Ming Society) are a new philosophy, but reach our arms to all in friendship, courtesy, and most importantly, in love. Because regardless of our background, we are all People of the Earth and Seekers of Truth.

Shen wrote:Shai Ming, taken from the Chinese word for "Sunshine", in simple terms is a symbol and metaphor for love.

We (the Shai Ming Society) are a new philosophy, but reach our arms to all in friendship, courtesy, and most importantly, in love. Because regardless of our background, we are all People of the Earth and Seekers of Truth.

That sounds pleasant.

No sarcasm there.

hey...ooo i like this.....

ok..what makes me happy:
sunrise...especially in winter...the sky looks amazing...
rain the look and sound of it, a full or new moon
warmth of the sun on my skin though the air is thick and cold...
listening to ridiculously funny music- like that of tenacious d or the dead kennedys
getting an entire day to myself..alone...not a soul at home...
going for a silly movie with my friends, and cracking up,throwing popcorn at eachother...love how juvenile we can be...
striking up funny conversations with strangers...
helping people...even if it just has to do with making them smile...
seeing people laugh...oh yeah and laughing uncontrollably....even for no proper reason till my cheeks hurt.....
going for loong walks...
completeing songs, and artwork well enough that they properly convey what i wanted them to
when my dads not around...for long...long enough that when he returns nothing he says affects me as much....i can actually tolerate him...that period of tolerance feels good...
wrestling with my brothers even when i know i'm going to loose..

my goals:
to get a job
complete learning the guitar...go on to learn other instruments
get into a decent college.
open up an adoption home...ok that's more like just a dream right now...
finishing the photography course..instead of quitting in between like i did with other things
learn other languages
stop binging and self harm completely
get fit
cook something..proper...anything...just can't get myself to do it
shave my head bald....silly i know....can't do it here...but before i die...i just want to..no real reason
be better at making decisions and to be less doubtful

my accomplishments:
i lost my optimism completely....but i'm getting it back
changed from one stubborn little brat...well to someone who actually likes to give genuinely
half way to getting fitter
respect i've gained from others for being me
graduating from school..it's over, finally...did the best i could
i've actually got into reading...from hardly reading at all
being able to be more calm...

this actually felt good....thanx for starting this anomolous!

Late again, I forced myself out of bed, trying to subdue my bed hair.

I opened the door to step outside and was surprised. It was cool, the sun was shining and it was cool. A breeze at my back as if to hurry me to my car. I sat through class in a funk. Just thinking. Or just feeling? The teacher offered to stay past 11AM to explain something more in-depth for those who cared to stay.

I didn't care, not today.

I got in my car and drove home, windows down to savor the beautiful weather.

Ate lunch and decided to take a book my brother gave me out to the park.

Too beautiful not to.

I stopped by the creek first. I always stop by the creek first. The ducks wearily paddle away from me, looking back as people do when they're not sure if they're being followed. The sound of the short waterfall drowned out any noise of traffic that may have slipped past the trees.

I walked on.

Took to the paved black top, I grew tired of feeling guilted to acknowledge everybody who passed me so I waited until nobody was in view to judge, and climbed up the shrub covered hill to the upper dirt trails.

I like looking down on people from there. I feel hidden, safe, aware.

I sought out a comfortable rock and read for about half an hour. Feeling a little more inspired and a little less stressed I closed my book and pulled out my iPod. I don't usually like to listen to music when I'm walking in the woods. I enjoy listening to the life around me do it's thing while I casually observe. But I felt I had done enough appreciating and thought it wouldn't hurt to close out the outside world if just a little bit.

And walked.

Slowly and deliberately. Trying to savor the breeze with my hands like it were flowing silk.

Empty.

My hands felt empty, though.

The sensation disturbed me, so I glanced around the trail to find something. A bundle of sticks and twigs lay toppled over each other on the side of the trail. I picked the larger one out and held it in my left hand.

I grasped that stick like an infant would a finger.

My hands didn't feel so empty anymore.

Thak you for posting. We need more of looking for the good in our lives. My friends told me to get an attitude of gratitude. I feguently list the things I'm proud of in my life. I frequently read over the list to counter my usual tendency to search for the bad in everything.

I guess today I'm mostly proud that I do farily well in life besides being bipolar and an alcoholic. I once weighed 300 pounds. I'm proud that I got the weight off, earned a black belt, and ran marathons. I used to be one of the dumbest kids in elementary school because of many learning problems, especially ADHD. I feel proud that I graduated from college with honors and have been named to two different who's who's. I go into detail about my struggles on my website. Everything I am and everthing that I have accomplished I owe to self-help groups like AA and Recovery, Inc. They taught me to live.
Good Luck,
James

What makes me happy / Accomplishments / What I care about:

When I feel the grace that is on my life
The doves that I raise and my dove aviary
Practicing silence and solitude and active stillness
A brand new thought when first it enters my mind
The smell of rain on warm pavement
Banana creme pie, and thai food
Having some money, but not having money have me
That I have the love of my children
Books - books - books
That I stand in my life, unashamed
My oldest son's perserverence in the face of obstacles
My youngest son's soft heart
My daughter's ability to be exactly who she is, no matter the situation (amazing to me!)
My heart that runs to laughter so often
That I started the AIDS Care Project at a time when most people were still afraid
My stubborn refusal to let my past define me
My independent spirit and willingness to take responsibility for me
My long and successful career; my new career that I've started as an act of love
My ability to pick myself up after a defeat
That I can say with sincerity: I like me.
That I am debt free
The hills that surround me, and the beautiful valley in which I live
The bullfrogs in my koi pond
Japanese gardens
Wine... oh, I love wine... and champagne on a hot evening
Being with people who are funny and who love to talk of ideas
My faith that defines me
My 3 dachshunds, the best breed of dog in the world
My contentment at being alone, and my hope that maybe romantic love will still come my way
Black gospel music, jazz, R & B
My understanding and acceptance of both love and despair
My gardens
Second-hand stores
My love of antiques and things of yesterday
Ideas that move my spirit or challenge my mind
Yoga and pilates and hiking
My hope for future grandchildren
Singing... letting my spirit soar
Surrounding myself with simple but beautiful things
A few lifelong friends; a small circle of good friends
Hummingbirds
Lying in bed, listening to the rain outside
And more...

Thank you for this... I found joy in making my list.

LifeSong

I'm gonna try my best... I've had little encouragement and compliments in life, so I might end up sounding negatice ;-; Anyways, here I go. Here's my best.

What do people like about you?

Well.. I hide the real me from a lot of people ^^;; But usually it's:
My happiness
My intelligence
My kindness
My thoughtfulness
My selflessness
My helpfulness
I always try very good or my best on something.
Apparently I am funny (never thought I was)
My maturity
My friendliness

What goals have you accomplished so far in life, and what goals are you still in pursuit of?

Goals I've accomplished... Second grade won poster designing contest, always had amazing stories, drew fingers on my people when I was in kindergarten even Got the presidential award at my promotion, my high game in bowling of a 120something (WOOO! THAT SUCKS! LMAO!), my bowling average going up within 15 pins in one season (which is a lot) Placing pretty high out of like 100 teams in bowling with my dad, I've volunteered a lot, I've had straight A's except for 1 B+ which was unfair because I was graded on how well I could make something which just happened to not work with me, won a few pool games against my friends... that's most if not all of 'em. oh, and I'm proud that I am a roleplayer.

Goals I'm still in pursuit of...
Becoming either the owner of my own successful video game company, a lawyer, or even a psychiatrist! (funny how I have to see one LOL) Maybe a writer on the side
My goal is to be valevictorian when I graduate from High school
TO go to the best college in the country for what I want to be.
To bitch slap this one bully
To become known
To move out of Michigan!!
To play an instrument well
To become better at drawing
To become a better writer
To finish my stupid book! Not even done with chapter one HAHAHA
To stop being so emo xD

What makes you happy?

Friends (specifically a few, I'll name 'em, but you don't know 'em. Maybe one. Some are names, others are nicknames. K. Gabriel, Tiffany, Sarina, Anthony, Jasmin, Kinhoshi, Kiyoshi, Raine, Saurien, and a few more. The sad thing is, I only am real friends with one )
Sunset
Being safe
Gaming
Roleplaying
Finding my true love
Reading (specifically Romance novels)
Standing up for others
Voicing my very loud opinion
Listening to music
Sitting in a meadow at sunset or near sunset
Being in a pool and just floating
Sorting through my thoughts
Drawing
Writing
Cycling
Chocolate (Jasmin: they're better than cheese puffs! XD XD Good thing we both agree. ^^)
70's and 80's music
Relaxing by a river
Relaxing in a forest
Taking a long walk down the beach (You shall LOL at that! XD)
Computers
Feeling useful
Using my brain in some way
Learning
Roleplaying if I didn't say it yet.
Hiking
Nature
Waterfalls
Caves
Unmarked forests (meaning, no trails)

I did my best. ^^ Most positive I've ever been. Cheered me up. Thanks Anomalous.