I am very bewildered by life

I have always found life in general bewildering. Even at age 4 there was some element of this in my thinking. I just have moments where I think everything in life is very strange and peculiar. I don't think I fit in with the autism diagnosis as I don't lack empathy for others but have always been very withdrawn. As an adult, I have these moments where I just feel strange but it is usually more that everything seems like it is not the way it should be. I remember having these feelings at a very early age, perhaps even stronger than I do now. Does this sound like more of a feature of a "schizo" personality or autism?

It is cruel that nature creates people like me. People that are slightly affected by abnormal genes (personality disorders) but functional enough to be lumped in with normal people.

Hello,
I also feel like this most day and that my life is one big loop of the same things.