Blog post-present mood and feeling positive

Don't really feel like updating. At 3 a.m. in the morning, life just doesn't seem that great, now does it? Feeling ok, enjoying the moment type of thinking and doing it too. I really have this great attitude and I am sure it will last a long while. I feel more grounded in the belief that I am ok, that I will be ok.

I wanted to expand on my situation as it was and how it is now. I am diagnosed Mixed Bipolar. I have had so much suffering. Especially with depression. I easily become suicidal. I don't like to feel like this. But it seems it is not my choice other than to seek help from the psychiatrist I see, as soon as possible to get my mood stabilized. More recently, I experienced the worst depression I've ever gone through. I did not attempt suicide but I waited until I felt better and I do feel wonderful now. I love life and how good I feel everyday. With my illness I can experience a low mood of depression again and hopefully it won't be as severe as the last but I know my illness already. It can be unpredictable. I, however, feel hopeful in knowing I have set in place support to help me make it through until I am stable once again. People who love me, suicide hotline, doctor, therapist, and other things to help me at my worst, if necessary. A hospitalization if necessary to help me weather the illness until I am well again and not a danger to myself. I don't want to get to that point. But it's set up there just in case. That plus faith, faith in God, in myself that things will be ok, that I will be ok whatever happens. I'm not afraid anymore, nor am I already giving up.

Definition of Mixed Bipolar:
http://www.dualdiagnosis.org/bipolar-di ... -disorder/