Why hope for the impossible?

I have, to paraphrase ddee, been living on 'hope' for some time now. However, it has become apparent that my hope is futile. What I seek is impossible, and those I would ask for help from would spurn me and ignore me. I dont know what to do. I cant go back to how I was before, without hope. I just dont want to be bothered with any of that anymore. But I cant delude myself any longer either. This isnt like me at all. Im usually not only very decisive, but actually pretty impulsive too. I dont have dilemas. I dont think things thru deeply enough to have such. I simply am what I am, and in the past that has been enough for me. It isnt any longer.

There are many...many things to hope for.

Only one concerns me. I dont care which team win what sporting event. I dont care if the eastern seaboard sinks into the atlantic. I dont care whether god exists. All I care for is me.

If all you care for is you then is this your problem?....or is this you just stating that your only concern is for yourself..

All i've ever cared for was myself....and that has its perks. But eventually the hope is to have someone else to genuinly care for.

How was camping?.

Camping? I do not go camping. I like my creature comforts.

Yes, I suppose my concern only for myself is my problem. I dont see other people as being my equal. I dont really see them as people at all, just things to make use of. My actions have no meaning. My life is without meaning or purpose.

Jamie,
That isn't me. It is someone with a similar name. Camping was not so good. the forset was filled with a bunch of rednecks. But anyway, yeah that isn't me hun.
Amy

Camping was not so good. the forset was filled with a bunch of rednecks. But anyway, yeah that isn't me hun.
Amy

OOO, creepy, sound like the movie Deliverance, bum deal sweets.

yeah, aimdog and aimcat are two people. Aimdog is a mod here. coinkidenk? yes.

Yes....just a qwinkydink.

All it must be.

Why do you imagine it is a coincidence? I like Aimdog, so I deliberatly mimicked her cognomen.

Why thank you aimcat. I'm flattered I like you too