How do I have hope if I have pain 24/7? Struggling,,,

I have lost hope ,,, hope that I will ever get out of pain, it's been 9 years and the last two have been horrible, I have had many surgeries and many doctors , I have changed my life style and given up many things today are physically demanding because it makes my pain worse , many days I just want to curl up in a ball and die,, I cut to release my anger and frustration and am falling into a deep depression, I know other people have it worse i do know this ,, but this is my life and I am getting to that point that I have no hope, I see no hope in my future I have no hope that the pain will go away,, how do I embrace my pain and move on? I just want to keep on fighting it and get out of pain but I am loosing hope,,,

Hi, my nam eis rebecca i suffer chronic pain from damaged nerves in my neck and i suffer boarderline personality disorder with mood swings.
may i ask what operations you have had
what is your diagonase i have been in constant pain for the past 10 years and it is dibilitating .
do u have a good doctor, having a good doctor and having the right treatment offered to you is imprtnt and following the right conbination of treatment ios essential.
I sometimes feel like there is no hope and i want to end it all to be released from the pain i am in ?
where are you from ?