(Was) Lonely Because of my selfishness

I have deep seated issues and I always will (I believe everyone has issues). However, they used to get the best of me. I used to be very paranoid and I also held the belief that I wasn't good enough for any company. As a result, I kept to myself. Fortunately, I had my mantra. It is better to be alone than in bad company. It would only do so much to help matters for me. I did have a few friends, but over the past couple of years, one died, another wound up doing some time, and another ended up leaving the area. As a result, I was left with one or two.

Then I had a shift in mindset where I decided that I could reach out to others. Interesting thing was as soon as I changed my mindset, all of a sudden I had a lot of friends. I didn't even really do anything to reach out to people. I was still focused on doing something in order to better my situation (being on the streets).

A lot of people have told me about how I used to be withdrawn and standoffish. While I still relapse into my former habits, I am still a little more open.

To be honest, I am a little disoriented about the whole thing. If this post doesn't make sense, trust me, my life is not making sense right now. All I could think of is that there is something spiritual at work in my life.

brokenblade,


This makes absolute sense. The reason I say so is because I have also been going through a similiar transformation! I used to also be shy and withdrawn growing up, but in the recent years and especially this year, I have started to become the social butterfly my body had always wanted me to be. And yes, it all starts with the mindset!

To be honest, I am a little disoriented about the whole thing. If this post doesn't make sense, trust me, my life is not making sense right now. All I could think of is that there is something spiritual at work in my life.

To me, I believe it is your heart breaking through all of the layers of limiting beliefs that you have created over it. Your heart is trying to tell you it is time to change your life because otherwise it will not survive. Always listen to your heart because in the end it knows what's best for you.

For anyone reading this post, if you truly dedicate toward something you wish to attain in life, it is possible. The only thing you have to do is envision it in your mind. The mind is your most powerful tool you will ever possess and it will only get stronger, unlike the rest of your body. Never stop training it, never stop testing it, never stop pushing it to the limit!

I agree anything is possible with that oh so important mind change. Once I have declared something it is so. I have watched the entire world flip like a pancake- when you change the world changes instantly so

Your right, something spiritual is going on in your life.
Listening to it brings hope and change in your life. It has in minel
I wish you the best
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