How can I ever be happy when I am too far gone?

I am a 24 year old male who is extremely socially underdeveloped. I was traumatized at the ager of 3 was molested but no penetration, developed behavior problems acted out in class and offended a street kid in the 4th grade who jumped me and it was the first time anyone stood up to me so I shut down and became a loner and stopped socializing. I wore a man 44 waist pant because my parents bought junk food and just let me eat. I was switched in special ed in the 10th grade and thought it was uncool to talk to special ed kids so I didn't make friends. Finally lost weight in the 12 th grade on my own will. Parents never taught me important life lessons and were religious and said the bible is all that matters what you learn in school is useless so I never had the direction to be somebody so after high school I isolated myself and eventually became embarrassed and tried to find work but by that time I was so deteriorated I couldn't pass job interviews so now I only am able to get jobs through employment agencies. I paid off my car that my mom cosigned on so that's positive but I desire to be somebody but with my low iq and poor social skills and no understanding of financial things like taxes and credit because I wasn't taught I feel like assisted suicide or euthanasia is the only way. I failed the asvab scored a 23 when I was 22. I have tried meds and they don't work all my problems stem from bad parenting and intellectual disability. Just need advice.

You have been through some tough times. It's understandable that you feel lost and at a disadvantage.It's not too late for you. You can still learn the necessary skills you need. You were only 12 when you lost all that weight and that's a great achievement. All of that courage is still there inside of you. Focus on one problem at time. And ask yourself what have you been really doing to solve it. There's always more than one route to your destination.

How to handle things like taxes, etc, is very learnable. You'd just be learning them at a later age (which happens sometimes, life isn't always predictable) and they're not as mysterious as they might seem when you don't know anything about them.

I think the same goes for social skills, though they're a little harder because they're not all rote. I agree to focus on one (maybe two) problem(s) at a time and try to cultivate results - they won't show immediately but you should be able to see at least a little bit soon with good techniques. You could make it a goal specifically to start learning more about both important life topics and social skills, looking at recommended articles and videos online and practicing at work.

As long as you're alive, it's never too late to do anything. Whether you're 12, 35, 50, it doesn't matter.

I am sorry to hear about the rough times you've been through, but don't let them stop you. Sometimes the only way to overcome fears is to face them. So if you are terrified of being in social situations, try and expose yourself to them a little more. Set small goals and strive for them one at a time. Anything is possible but suicide is not the answer.

Have you thought about volunteering somewhere? Maybe at a shelter, soup kitchen, grassroots organization? Volunteering for something that you care about really makes you feel like you are worth something, like you have a purpose. And believe me, you do.

All I can say is that it's never too late to become the person you were meant to be, and that you have a purpose.

Keep talking.

you are much more likely to achieve happiness than people with NPD, HPD and have very IQ/ good look.

HPDs are no good with tax or every small things even if they are smart
NPDs are great with job interview but gets depressed.

Those things(your iq, good at job interview, know about tax) don't determine your happiness or life at all. See life in more positive way. *hug*