Thanks

To the mods for not putting me on preview or anything drastic. Tbh...I am not concerned or worried about bans, about being this or that-because I am always doing my best to keep it real and to be honest.

I'd rather be punished for being honest than for telling people what they want to hear.

Anyway, this last week has been really tough on me and I've been really angry and frusterated. I also despise people who think of anger as something abnormal. Oddly, notice how they are frequently expressing their rage for others anger (by telling you how awful you are, by taking the time to actually note it, for being angry).

Had they been through the same experience...perhaps they'd be angry too.

Yet, it is not the experience that I will speak of...but the actions of the mods.

True, I do feel the same about the fragmentation issues expressed in another thread. I also feel the Hpd's will benefit from the same type of forum constuct that Scarlett benefited from .

Out of curiousity, any Hpd's reached that level (or is the percentage of success greater) through this new type of forum constuct? I ask how much, in the Hpd's opinion...or even the mods, has the forum improved after the red letters have come up top?

I always felt Scarletts are rare here...how many do the senior members know of?

And the environment that this forum was when she became and thrived in who she became? She truly did thank the nons many a times, as the nons also were happy to hear from her as well as she progressed and posted.

At any rate...I have realized recently that I have spent much time and energy fighting my ex Hpd (though spy devices, counter surviellence-need to scan every da m thing she gives the kids, lest another hidden cam be planted in something) gathering evidence against her...

Odd, because even when you fight an Hpd or a Narc (who wants Narcissistic Attention of some sort), they are still draining you. You are still expending your resources. You are still being drained by an energy vampire (if the cluster b at hand is of that sort...).

Better to never fight.

That is the best way.

However, that is not an option for me now.

So I will crush her completely in the same courts she thinks will protect her...in the same environment she feels she can use as a weapon against me.

This time...she will not come back unless I permit.

Anyway, to the mods...Thanks.

Not that we all agree always, or that we even need to.

But from time to time...it's nice to come and feel you've been treated fair-even when the other side didn't need to treat you fair.

As ironic as it sounds...I'm getting so sick of having to manage all the problems that this cluster b projects into my lap in the most indirect ways you could imagine that it was nice to come here and have no angry messages in the inbox...no warnings...no questions of this or that...no demands that I explain yestersay,

Etc.

You mods...I know you keep it real too.

In everything, every two sides to the coin: Someone is wrong and someone is usually in the right.

At times it is inbetween. The truth that lies inbetween.

That is where we rule, and I and some of my close friends happen to reside:

We rule everything inbetween that extreme/jumping to conclusion/black and white thinking type shhhhhht (that gray area inbetween the colors black and white).

We rule everything inbetween that black & white thinking shhhhht.

Some of us cannot control the day, but we CAN control the night...

All the best.

B

All sounds like a Jmac on his last legs.

Pathetic..

oksayhi212 wrote:All sounds like a Jmac on his last legs.

Pathetic..

You forgot your kisses.

Sorry Greatem..no kisses! lol But you are right. I should have explained why I was disappointed in his post.

JM wrote:Anyway, this last week has been really tough on me and I've been really angry and frusterated. I also despise people who think of anger as something abnormal. Oddly, notice how they are frequently expressing their rage for others anger (by telling you how awful you are, by taking the time to actually note it, for being angry).

JM...There is a right way and wrong way to deal with anger. Taking your frustration out on others is not the way to go about it. Using Masquerade as your wiping post can't be justified. Maybe you should learn from that instead of trying to justify it, because of your own misery. Why try to drag other people down with you. This is not the first time, you attacked her. She has nothing to do with your personal problems.

If you are going to thank and apologize to people you offended and attacked, at least be sincere. You should recongnize what you did wrong and learn from it, versus trying to justfy it away, constantly repeating the behavior and than play the victim. If you don't see the flaws in your thinking or can't control your anger nor recognize why your action were wrong, than therapy is the only way to go.

My opinion anyway, and hope it helps.

OK