Had my first therapy session today!

Coffin/throwdown, the only person who is exhibiting disordered behavior in this exchange, from the very beginning, has been and is you. And it is spiraling out of control, from inchoate rage in response to a slight that was visible only to you to this stalking behavior and attempt at virtual-mob incitement. Please stop. Lifesong's many positive contributions to this board stand on their own, as do your posts, which point the finger of your own accusations directly back at you. Rage away at me if you'd like, it won't change reality, and I strongly doubt it will make you happy in any meaningful way.

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Someone fell off the med truck. Don't worry Throwdown... I sent out for some help for you. They're nice people.

Hi Sans

I'm curious -if you had been diagnosed correctly what were you expecting? My guess (as nobody with any credentials): HPD with some relatively benevolent Borderline and Narcissisitic streaks...high IQ, high function? Or, intelligent young woman just frustrated by lack of a good Dad early on, now exploring that deficit with others?

At any rate you would fit right in in Beverly Hills, yeah, you could have a TV show. It would be great

BTW, as always, love your verve and you wits.

Love and peace to you in 2011,

O

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Kevin

Wow. Just taking some time with my family… eating some more ham and sweet potatoes and doing some skiing… and come back to this. Shoot. This is all soooo unnecessary…
Posted this in the NPD forum since I'm getting attacked there... am posting this here too. Hopefully, Admin will handle all this at some point and I'll delete my posts...


To “the_love_coffin”, “Life_Song”, “throwdown” and whoever else you might be…

Have you ever heard the term strawman? It is where a person creates a version of someone/something that includes a bit of truth combined with fallacious claims so as to stir up a desired reaction in the readers/hearers. You’ve spent all day today creating just such a strawman of your version of me. What is it about the strawman version of me that you hate so? Because you DO hate. And that anger and hate has locked you up, and will keep you locked up for many years until you do something to get to the root of it and heal it or let it go. When feelings are this strong and this deep as you’ve shown on the 3 boards you’ve posted on continuously today, it strongly suggests something very traumatic happened in childhood. Have you considered counseling to get at the root of this?

No one that I’ve just read is agreeing with you regarding what you’re saying, and yet you persist. I ask you again, as I did in the HPD forum, what is driving this intense anger of yours? Do I somehow resemble someone from your past whom you’ve identified as a narcissist? You are not just reacting to me… you’ve combined me with someone else, and conjured up a version that, somehow, you feel an urgent or ‘red-hot’ need to battle in some way, to demolish, to expose, to protect the ‘innocent others’. Again, where in your past life have similar reactions occurred within you? Perhaps who in your past did you feel needed to be exposed but who you were not powerful enough to accomplish that with them? If you’d put down your ax to grind with me, and start honestly considering these and other questions in your life, you’d begin a process to heal that cesspool of rage that simmers within you.

Here’s my post where I speak more lightly of your anger – it might be useful to you if you could read it again at a time when you are more calm and see how it might pertain to you and your current life. Another useful way might be to ask a few people who know you well and whom you trust in real life whether anything I’ve said in the post, and here, might be accurate… Here’s the post starting at about pg 15 or so…http://www.psychforums.com/histrionic-personality/topic54738-150.html.

Beyond this, I’m not going to engage with you further. I’ve tried PM. I’ve tried being ‘soft’ with you. Now, I’m being a bit more direct as to what I see that your board behavior suggests. Beyond this, I won’t engage. I’m not here to fight… if I wanted to do that, I’d just pick up the phone, call my NPD mother, and ask her to consider my feelings regarding xxxx authentically, and that won’t be happening too soon.

As I suggested before, you’ve found another site where you feel welcomed and where the posts fit with how you hold narcissism or histrionicism - you’ve been banned from this forum 2-3 times – perhaps it would be best for everyone if you remained in the site of your choice. If you continue coming back here, a place that you’ve disparaged and whose administrator you’ve insulted, then I need to ask: What are you getting from being here? What is your purpose? No need to respond – just rhetorical questions that could be helpful to you if you’d ever honestly ask them of yourself.

LifeSong

Readers following this thread on San's therapy progress - see the following topic for San's most recent session.
He kicked me out... My therapist that is.

Sans,

Plenty to ruminate on flowing from your last session on the couch...

Have seen some of your posts on other topics but have not yet heard back where your head & heart are truly at?

Its Wed / typical therapy day so I can't help but wonder a bit?

I hope you are doing well, trusting yourself, and following that calm inner voice from within, regardless of the specific path it tells you to follow.

(like this when you make long term choices for yourself....)



(like this, as needed, for as long as needed -- i.e. fully expressed-- to your therapist. If you opt for that by all means, let him know how you really feel!!! Hold nothing back - rage and outrage during sessions are totally OK, in fact strongly encouraged!)

wisdom wrote:Sans,

Plenty to ruminate on flowing from your last session on the couch...

Have seen some of your posts on other topics but have not yet heard back where your head & heart are truly at?

My heart is at needing to find a new therapist. I have one more session with him next weds (somehow I got pulled into that) but I don't want him anymore. If he was testing me, then fine but I don't function that way. If he's going to pout and try to kick me out every time I rage at him, how will I ever do it? How will I ever get all of me out? He was giving off such frustration at the end to me that it just made me want to dominate him and win. But, I already did if I can get him that way. He literally made me leave. I can't come back from that. I don't want to. I don't need that type of personality. I can't see myself being happy with him for years. Heck! Look through this thread, I've never really been happy with him.

I'm very A + B = C. How will you solve for C without knowing what A and B are? You can't just band aid the situation and turn the B into a Q.

A + Q =/= C

We're too different on our expectations. Maybe everyone will be like him, but I need to see that for myself. Maybe the next time I see someone, I will be ready to take in their style.

Thank you for thinking of me today, Wisdom.

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