Where i am today compared to days of yesterday ~

Hello to all, some of you know me in here and some of you new people dont know me at all. I decided to sit down tonight and give everyone an update as to how my life has been going. Back in the last part of July my ex HPD and I split up for the last time. She tormented me and used me as a whipping post right up until the very end when she found a new supply. So its been 5 months and I am getting better and feeling better but still carry around a lot of the hurt and pain that she inflicted upon me and my kids. I come here often and read all the many posts and learn from those of you that are still in it with your HPD. Well i'm here to tell you that it does get better. The first month without her was a living hell, seeing her with her new boyfriend and having her rub it in my face. The second month wasnt quite as bad but still pretty bad. The third and fourth months I started to see noticable improvement. Just so everyone knows and I am not putting this lightly, I had anxiety the first two months like you cant believe. What I would reccommend to those of you that are having the same thing is to get on some good anxiety medication and get a good circle of friends to hang out with. In other words youre going to have to go thru the pain there is no way around it but you can lessen it I feel by doing these things. Also once youre out of the madness and lies and deciet and manipulations your mind will start to heal and day by day you will feel so much better i promise. I look upon what I went thru as a positive learning experience and quite frankly wouldnt have it any other way. I am so much smarter and better off than I was when I met this person. I can pick out an HPD from miles away now, and believe me I have met a couple and steered way clear. So the year 2010 is going to be a great year for me. I hope all of you here can learn from me and some of my friends that still come here. One girl that still comes here has a wealth of knowledge and a way with words of wisdom. Her name is Roni and throughout my many hardships and needing advice and guidance she was many times for me, my person to lean on. She helped to put things into perspective for me when I thought I couldnt take this abuse anymore. You could probably learn a lot from her previous posts. One of those is one in which she tells a tale of a scorpion and a frog. I have never forgotten that and still think about it all the time. Anyway cheers to all and I will check back in, in a few more months.

All my best to you my dear Sledge. You are truly an inspiration to everyone here. Hearing that things are better for you will put a smile on my face this entire day!

So glad to hear it Sledge, and congrats on getting out & staying out!!!

I too keep thinking back to where I was a year ago and the difference is remarkable. I'm so thankful I got out, and like you say, once you get through the ptsd / anxiety / withdrawal, life is really sweet.