loving a histrionic

oh yeh lol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No i didnt get an answer. I got told that yes, it did happen, and how, but not why.
I guess im not entitled to know. Thats between you and her, i understand, and none of my business - apart from the fact that it was me and my daughter you were discussing i have no business to ask.
I now understand where we are at.
And you have said yourself you dont trust me, so i guess this clarifies the matter further.
Thanks for that.

You really are a drama queen. Can't speak to me on a phone. When i try to tell you what its about you butted in once again. Do you not think there is something wrong with you communicating thru this forum to me. Specially as we were in the same bed last nite. I do. I fell it very strange indeed.

Question for you.
While i am with you, there is very little problems, there is no trouble, You tell me all this wonderful rubbbish about what you think about me and love. Soon as i leave to go home to work, you get straight on here with in half an hour and start right up again. Compulsive personality (i think so); A need to order your postings as someone who really as a handle on what is going on (what would that be labeled as).
Your words:
You tell me that i am the right man for you, i am a wonderful caring, loving, polite, tactile, generous, caring and a grown up man.
You paint a very different picture of me on here.
You aint me to be, uncouth, uncaring, umemotional, un-understanding. No reason, non-caring, hateful, manipulative the list is endless in two forums in one year.

Even when i asked you to try and do that on sunday put down your feelings as you say them to me. You couldnt. You are either lying to the forum, or lying to me. I believe this to be the latter.

Why the hell tell you anything. I sat on sunday and told you everything about my life, from being sexually abused to loosing my trust in people thru lies and deciept feeling let down and so on. That was a mistake, that was a grave mistake.

You know why i blabbed to my ex about your daughter, i cant help motor mouthing. What do i get from it. I was angry and she extracted and i gave. It was wrong yes i know. It isnt about learning from mistakes, it's about realising how to deal so i am not manipulated into circumstances like this anymore. I have achieved this. Whith my ex, my friends, ny family, and now you.

I have not lied anywhere in this posting, and i dare you to challenge this fact. Using the truth. If you lie i will go back to being a liar, no point being honest when no one else is.

your turn yawn yawn.

Thanks for your answer.
As i explained to you today, my posts on this hpd forum, were not for you to read. They were for me to find some sort of support, and yes, at times for a sounding/venting board. (which is why i posted as a guest, rather than as me).
Why do you think i was sounding off on here? Do these people know you? I need support too, from someone - who is there???
I learned my lesson last year, about talking to people about our problems. You have told me many times, that i have put my foot in my mouth with regards to my friends and family. I take your advise on board. You were clearly able to explain to me, that i had made our relationship difficult, by talking to my friends and family about things that had happened. I learned.

Why havent you? That was all i was asking?
You are very quick to give out advice, that you dont seem to follow yourself.
You are very quick to make statements about how we should conduct ourselves with out ex's, but dont seem to follow it yourself.
Youre answer was that if you told me the truth i would walk out. You told me you would tell me on here. You brought this discussion to the forum.
We have spent the weekend on further discussions. I understand how these things have hurt you. But you didnt answer my question.
I am not putting you down. You are a wonderful, kind, caring man, who is good to me and my children.
You have done things wrong that i have tried to understand.
Again, i say to you, i dont understand how you can sit there and give advice to me, that i take, get fed up when i take it, but its a different story for you. I have no one there to talk to but this forum, now this may not be right, but, if you wont answer my questions, where else am i supposed to turn if i take your advice and dont turn to friends and family????
You seem to want me not to question anything that you do.
Just accept, forget, and move on.
You have answered many of my questions, and for that i am grateful. This has brought understanding, and forgiveness, and closeness in our relationship.
I want a life too. I did not ask for any of this to happen, but neverless, if it needed to happen to be with you, in an open honest way, then i am glad.
I do realise that i have problems over the things that have happened the last couple of years, and, am ready to accept that i may need some help.
I am going to seek this now, for myself. I have tried hard to do this as a couple, (which is how you preferred) but, if you are not willing to trust me enough to answer my questions honestly, or be fed up when i ask what i need, or need to vent on here to others who have been through what i have, rather than to people i know, or be fed up for me to get support from anyone, and think that i can hold all this inside, well i will be honest, and say that i cant.
I cant deal with this alone.
I love you very much, but i dont understand what you do at times. And you dont help me to try.

What im saying is, if you know all this stuff, how can it apply to me but not to you?
You know what it does to our relationship, weve been there, and ate the pie, on my side i learned, accepted and stopped, you continue, all i want to know is why? Why cant you live by the advice to you willingly give???

I used to keep a diary of the things that had happened. I destroyed it when you started reading it.
Well, couldnt talk to friends, family, you, and now i cant even on here.
The postings on here, are a record of the things that happen. You are so good at getting me off the subject matter.
The reason that things were great last night when you were in my bed, were because i felt that closeness, that you give me when you tell me things. What i have realised is, you tell me things (other things) but they actually distract me from the question i asked you. Why? did you think the answer (the truthful one) would hurt me? Were you protecting me again?
Is it that you cant stand the fact, that you can stand back enough to give me advice that you cant take yourself?
Going back through the postings on here, made me realise that although we were happy, and had once again shared that closeness when you opened up to me, you hadnt actually answered my question.
When you see what you actually asked in black and white, you dont forget it.
I remembered why i kept a diary. I guess posting on here since then, has been similar. You see what you actually wanted an answer to.
If you wont help me to understand, then i need help. The counsellor sat there and told you that i wanted to be with you. She saw it, why cant you????
You cant trust, you dont know how. It is a failing in you. YES ITS A FAILING IN YOU!
I am going tomorrow to get help. I dont have a problem in admitting i need it.

two years of it going on and on.
if you really want all the answers seek an oracle. If you want a relationship f**k no's anymore.

You told everyone everything about me, down to your husband and my ex-wife. So p**s off.
If you didnt how comes my ex told me stuff that could of only come from you or your ex-husnband, if it came via him which i will accept then you told him. So shut up.
As for your diaty, i read one page. One page about the way you used me to; befriend me to pacify me in order that i returned something tha belonged to you.
So............ I found out from that diary for that wekend you admitted to being friends with me for that reason.

I have had enuff starz. I want a normal life with normal things in it. Obviously you dont, cant, wont, whatever. Time for to heal and move on. I hope that is with you but the future may be orange but it dont look that bright does it.

So come on then, tell the things that my ex told your wife, told you (lol) ****** conspiratory ive been involved in with all of you weird ******!
So what are these things that you cant tell me????
Again you wonder why im ***** up????
You have your place to vent, feel free......

Well has my ex ever liked you?
Has your ex ever liked me????
Dont be so silly and immature - everyone else that leaves one relationship and starts another realises this, oh but ofcourse, your ex is different!
DUH

You are the one that is now throwing accusations at me. I would say im being very general in what i say, you, you are throwing specifics into the pot, want me to start? Want me to go into details?????
oh where do i start.;
You are being defensive, as usual. Im used to it you know.
So go on, state your facts, that your ex told you, as told by my ex, that i didnt tell him, cos i aint like you, i learn my lessons.
Boy you are funny