one last unveiling about 411needed

I hadn't come back to this forum because I knew it would be upsetting and full of #######4. During this time, I would leave presents for Chad, cry my eyes out at night, gave him money b/c I knew he would be needing some......... then..... I did....

here is my email about that:

so, i went to the forum and confirmed your obsession and wow you've really played them. congrats. i did not go through your 142(!!!!!!!) posts. jesus christ man. and you thought people in the internet played ME.

what i especially thought was interesting was the texting stuff. yeah, i like how you made up the part about how you told me that was that and cancelled the phone hahaha. nice. that's sarcasm because i'm so ######6 incensed. you've brainwashed yourself nicely.

oh, and now me sending you love-texts is hpd and psycho. thanks for that. talk about the deep-end. and i'm the cold one. riiiiiight.

i bet you didn't put in there about me giving you $200 because i knew you wouldn't have enough money. yeah didn't think so. i probably wouldve thought twice about it if i had read all the hateful disparaging things on there about me and your distorted view. but i still think i wouldve given it to you. i wonder what that says about me omg!!!! not that i .... CARE?!?!?! no way. not me


but i am wondering why i'm paying half of YOUR lawyers fee. that doesn't seem to make much sense. it would be one thing if it was a filing fee. but lawyers fee... that's interesting. i bet if i was doing it, it would be hpd manipulation, right? yeah i know.

yeah maybe i should've gone on there and seen how cruel and hateful you are about me. maybe i woulda thought again about giving you the dp and the cigs and offering to help with the doggie, and the $200 , oh and the candies and newspaper subscription.


why didn't you put that in there with "this hpd bitch is trying to suck up to me by being NICE and THOUGHTFUL WHAT A @@@@@@@!!!" maybe you did. i didn't go through your 142 posts (again, wtf!!!!!!! no, you're not obsessed with that forum not at all!!!)

Oh, I also think you didn't say that I would pay for your group program did you. don't think i don't see how twisted you are and how you've twisted everything. i don't fault you for that on one hand, because it was hard enough for ME to see it. so it'd be majorly hard for you. eh, you have no idea what i'm talking about and i'm sorry. .

also,.. nice touch about saying my house was "trashed" (you didn't say it was thread from the project i'm working on) and the pizza crust from earlier that evening. you really know how to present stuff to get your favor don't you?

hope you can start thinking for yourself soon and really figure out what's going on. anyway, yeah i won't be going back there. i just figured i'd drop in and see wtf was going on since i knew you are all feeding off of each other (like you would say/think one thing and then change your mind).

but 1) it pissed me off too much that you're that far off and obsessed and etc and that's just unhealthy and 2) i really don't care what those people say and 3) (most importantly), i don't want to see you being so nasty and manipulative. it makes me want to not be so nice anymore and that's wrong because then i'd be manipulated by them and you instead of doing what i think is right.

but yeah, you are a very hateful person. what's the first red flag of an abuser? o right, speaks disrespectfully of exes. check.

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so obviously, I've been back here a few times since then. It infuriates me so much because I see him manipulating everything and distorting everything. Even using that book about an abuser against me. I have my inner-trembles now just writing this stuff. Thanks, Chad! I get trembly just with this mini-confrontations.

Towards the end, my body also started a new trick: my bowels would start to move when I would get scared. I don't mean about how every time I would come home and not know what was on the other side of the door. But yeah, that was a physiological reaction to being scared about his yelling at me.

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hopefully, writing the truth here will purge my anger about his misrepresentation.

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i'm done.

How funny is this to see ? The truth of WHAT? This is on top of waiting until the day before paying for half of the lawyer which Kate waited until the afternoon and called and cancelled. So instead of paying 600 for the lawyer and splitting the costs? She knows that putting her through school for the last 2 years has hurt me finacially. I can't afford 1500.00 and then the slam camp? Come on? Truth?

$1000.00 dollars and a polygraph, you want to put your money where your lies are?

I have banned both 411needed and heretohelp for AGAIN bringing this site to personal attack. Neither user will be allowed to return.