Children of HPD/Other PD Parent(s)

My dad has HPD. He’s so abusive. It’s the worst because no one believes me, not even my mom, so I can’t get help for it. I’m afraid to talk to someone else about it because I’m afraid they’ll call CPS. They already did before, and my dad made me feel like utter $#%^ for trying to help myself. It hurts to not be able to have a normal relationship with him and train myself not to believe him when he says he loves me. Sometimes, when things get really bad between us, he’ll come to my room and cry on me to beg for forgiveness of his behavior. (this is the part where I tell you his behavior in hopes of someone helping me diagnose him) I honestly don’t know what he displays symptoms of ALL cluster B personality disorders, as he shows:
* Disregard for others' needs or feelings
* Persistent lying in order to get attention (tall tales) or because he couldn’t complete some thing (didn’t go because he’s sick)
* Aggressive, intimidating behavior
* Impulsive behavior
* Consistently irresponsible, like SOOO irresponsible
* Lack of remorse for behavior, he will lie about feeling remorse to get out of “
* Paranoid and doesn’t trust anyone. My mom doesn’t know anything about his childhood, his fears, and he always spies on people because he doesn’t believe
* Shallow, rapidly changing emotions
* Excessive concern with physical appearance
* Belief that he’s special and more important than others
* Failure to recognize others' needs and feelings
* Exaggeration of achievements or talents
* Expectation of constant praise and admiration
* Arrogance
* Unreasonable expectations of favors and advantages, often taking advantage of others
* Believes that others envy him and if not, will do everything to do so; he is pretentious
I know this isn’t a diagnosis thread, but I don’t know how to get help unless I know the problem. He constantly puts me down with back handed comments and things that no one but I can pick up. I’m so sick of it. I’m glad I found this thread because he breaks me so much. I just want a good relationship with my father and it’s highly unlikely but essential to me so I fall for his “I love you” every time no matter how much I fight it because deep down I always think maybe he means it this time.