Passive-aggressive Histrionic

I recently had a psych evaluation and though I had always thought that I was Bipolar, the evaluation concluded that I am not. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I feel lost. I always knew something wasn't right because medications just aren't working for me, except for the depression but only somewhat.

I feel like I don't know who I am anymore. I thought I was slowly learning who I was, accepting my illnesses and getting help, but deep down I could feel that it just wasn't working. It caused me to be dishonest with my pdoc, and now I this. It's very new to me.

Along with the passive-aggressive histrionic PD (with BPD traits), the psych evaluation concluded that I have Major Depressive Disorder with chronic Dysthymia with suspected early age onset (the psychologist believes I've been depressed most of my life), and anxiety disorder.

I take Abilify and Geodon right now for Bipolar, but the psychologist believes these are hurting me more than they are helping me, so I have to talk to my pdoc about coming off of them if he believes that I should. I think that I should at least try and see what happens. I am getting psychotherapy, so that with my medication for depression, maybe I can start to get better.

Right now I'm taking Adderall for depression because ADs make me so physically sick, but I was thinking of asking if he'd ADD Prozac to the Adderall and Provigil. But I'm scared of trying a new SSRI because I've had no luck with so many other ones. Has anyone here tried Prozac? What were the side effects? Were there any sexual side effects? How bad were they?

Any info would be greatly appreciated. I feel like an alien. I know others with BPD, but I've never met someone with HPD. I do believe that I can get better. It's just taking some time to understand that I have to learn myself all over again and learn to change my personality.

Thanks for reading...

Are you trying to find out if you are HPD? HPD, NPD, BPD and APD are all part of "Cluster B" personality disorders. They are often not so cut and dry to neatly fit into a diagnosis. I see the butterfly website on your profile. This indicates an NF type in the MBTI. Sometimes the MBTI can be used to personally identify yourself with a disorder. http://www.ptypes.com/correspondence.html