I feel like I have Histrionic Personality Disorder. I'm going to make this as short as possible.
When I'm at the center of attention, I don't feel uncomfortable, I'm quite comfortable I would say. But I don't feel I always need to be the center. For example, I have this one class, I don't know anybody there, except a few friends. When I have to answer a question in that class, I usually get nervous. What am saying is that it depends on the situation.
My friends tell me I am very dramatic. I'm a male, by the way. They say I usually make them feel uncomfortable and embarrassed. They say they're sometimes embarrassed when around me because I'm always yelling, overreacting and making sexual jokes.
I'm always talking about sex, I call all my teachers sexy, and this one time one of my teachers actually overheard me. Lmao
I always find myself exaggerating a story or just making up stories. I usually lie alot (even for the smallest things). People always ask "why do you lie so much?"
My mood can switch in a matter of seconds. I've been told this by a lot of people. I can be mad and someone tells a joke and suddenly am not anymore. I don't know if that's normal.
People actually have asked if I was bipolar.
I am extremely self centered (I think). I was talking to this girl at work, she was telling me about her problems at school and without knowing, I kept switching the conversation back to myself (I didn't notice this at first).
You could say that I'm self centered.
I'm always surrounded by a group of kids in school, because they want to hear me rap, sing or because I'm telling a story.
I was reading how Histrionics don't like criticism, and that's definitely true for me...I hate criticism. Even the smallest of insults hurt. I remember this girl was telling me what she didn't like about a song I recorded (and posted on YouTube) but everyone else said there was nothing wrong with it. I ended up going home feeling so sad that I took down the song from YouTube. Just because of her.
Today in my class, my friend that I usually talk to wasn't there and so I decided to sit beside a group of other friends.
I was trying to talk to them but they were too busy playing this game on their phones. I was annoyed by this. Nobody wanted to talk....I guess the game was more important.
I didn't notice this now but I always need someone to talk to, I hate it when people ignore me when I'm talking to them or just doesn't pay attention.
That's the key word right there, attention.
Over this past few months I've been trying to find out as much as I can about HPD and just who I am.
I told one of my friends that I think I might have it. At first he didn't know what it was so he googled it. And he told me that he thinks that the "symptoms" describe me perfectly.
There's so much I want to say but I feel like this is too much. I'm sorry if it's all over the place. I just want to know. Should I go seek help?
Do I have Histrionic Personality Disorder?
I know it's mostly found in females but is it possible I might have it? FYI, I'm 18 years old.