Good afternoon everyone, English is not my native language, so I apologize in advance for any mistakes.
I want to start by telling some behaviours that I've had since I was a kid:
-I used to cry over everything, and my parents pleased me.
-Always felt like I'm not here, like my mind was floating.
-I used to move my hands a lot, like I couldn't be sit still, imagine you are playing with bongos (my legs), and that's how I moved them.
-When I'm under stress I tend to talk during my sleep with my eyes open, even to sit to turn lights on or hold a phone. Then I "wake up" and realise I've been like that for hours 8 (dry mouth and eyes).
-I can't tell time, one hour, two hours, three months, 4 years, is all the same to me.
-I have a really hard time remembering dates, numbers, or even instructions. But I can remember places or sensations perfectly.-mood switching
I can be perfectly happy 15 minutes and then feel the worst; I am so lovely with complete strangers, need approval for every action that I do. I cry over stupid things so people pity me. I'm embarrassed to admit that I "invented or exaggearated" my ownself to make other people pity even if they were in worse circumstances (disabled, single mothers, indigenous communities) or the opposite I talk I'm the best I'm so great you will see I'll be ____________ (inser at least 7 careers) to my friends and family.
if you want more details, please ask. I wonder if there are any means to control these mood switchs, and to have perception of time. Thanks for your time, regards!